[baseline]

I Really have been trying to stay positive and grateful and every te I feel like I am finally emerging from depression something drags me back down! I am feeling overwhelmed as a caregiver for my mom and now my young son has been injured requiring surgery. We will have a long road of recovery ahead of us! It is so sad to see him suffer. I wish I could take his pain. I am torn by guilt because my mother needs me b. ut so does my boy!! I want to be all to everyone! I am tired and sleep deprived from worry and fear! I'm Sure it will work out but right now I just want to self medicate and go numb which is so selfish of me. The only reason why I don't is because my boy needs me! Lying next to h in the hospital right now and looking at his sweet face while he sleeps gives me the courage I did not have a few months ago. Thanks for listening! I needed to convince myself to try and be strong instead of selfish !

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by baseline

I Really have been trying to stay positive and grateful and every te I feel like I am finally emerging from depression something drags me back down! I am feeling overwhelmed as a caregiver for my mom and now my young son has been injured requiring surgery. We will have a long road of recovery ahead of us! It is so sad to see him suffer. I wish I could take his pain. I am torn by guilt because my mother needs me b. ut so does my boy!! I want to be all to everyone! I am tired and sleep deprived from worry and fear! I'm Sure it will work out but right now I just want to self medicate and go numb which is so selfish of me. The only reason why I don't is because my boy needs me! Lying next to h in the hospital right now and looking at his sweet face while he sleeps gives me the courage I did not have a few months ago. Thanks for listening! I needed to convince myself to try and be strong instead of selfish !

Sending you thoughts and encouragement! You can do this sweetheart! It's not selfish to take a minute to care for yourself once and awhile. After all, you have to keep up your own well being in order to take care of those who depend on you. I hope and pray all goes well with you and your son and mother! Stay strong, and take a moment or two for yourself as well! I know it's hard to put yourself first when so much depends on you, but you deserve to be at your best too!

[baseline]

Originally Posted by Alone & confused

Sending you thoughts and encouragement! You can do this sweetheart! It's not selfish to take a minute to care for yourself once and awhile. After all, you have to keep up your own well being in order to take care of those who depend on you. I hope and pray all goes well with you and your son and mother! Stay strong, and take a moment or two for yourself as well! I know it's hard to put yourself first when so much depends on you, but you deserve to be at your best too!

Thanks for your kind words. People usually come to me for help. I find it hard to reach out for fear of rejection or disappointment. My mother is not one to say thank you, i love you, or I'm proud of you! I will never get that from her. My care is expected "That's why you have children" her words. Anyway I promised my dad on his death bed I would care for he. I do it with all my heart . I just wish she wasn't so hard on me and make me feel guilty. My son was discharged home today. He is such a trouper! Thanks for your kindness.

[waterknob1234]

It is very hard to care for two sick family members, much less one. It does get tiring and you need rest and to care for yourself as well. My dad was much like your mom when he had cancer and I had to care for him. Daddy was angry at being sick, and sometimes took his feelings out on me. You are a person with a good heart. Wishing you the best and sending love and hugs your way.

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by baseline

Thanks for your kind words. People usually come to me for help. I find it hard to reach out for fear of rejection or disappointment. My mother is not one to say thank you, i love you, or I'm proud of you! I will never get that from her. My care is expected "That's why you have children" her words. Anyway I promised my dad on his death bed I would care for he. I do it with all my heart . I just wish she wasn't so hard on me and make me feel guilty. My son was discharged home today. He is such a trouper! Thanks for your kindness.

Anytime darlin!