[VB1313]

Can feel it coming on again, and I can't seem to shake it. Anxiety first, I know what happens next. No one to talk to about it. So here I am yelling into the wind. It always comes back. I'll try this. I don't know why. I can't imagine this leading to anything useful. How do normal people do it? Really, the world is just as hopeless and meaningless to them, why don't they see that? They're just as powerless as I am, why don't they care about it? What will it take for me to not care like everyone else doesn't care, so I can pretend everything's just fricking rosey like they do? Beh forget it... rhetorical questions. I know what the trite and hollow answers are already...

[CANDC]

VB welcome to Psych central! Sorry to hear you are feeling down. People at PC find their own answers oftentimes. Sometimes posting to others post is more revealing than answers you get to your posts.

Lots of forums to check out
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Hope you meet nice people as I have.

[Anxious Minds]

Life is an objectively pointless endeavor. Nobody has figured out why we are really here and those of us who see through the BS are the ones who are ultimately miserable. Mainly because we recognize our society puts us on a hamster wheel and can see that the happy life that is marketed to us is just a lie designed to get us to be good little consumers.

That's the depressing part and the bad news.

The good news is that we are ahead of the game by realizing that. Most of those people you talk about never do and live out their lives in quiet desperation and mediocrity. Us, on the other hand, we have a chance to grieve over the lie and find ways to move beyond it. Just because there is no objective meaning to our lives doesn't mean we can't find happiness. Our job is to find a new way of living that gets us off the hamster wheel and into something that holds more meaning. Something more real. Something with heart.

[VB1313]

I am feeling better today. I think just blurting out that feeling I was having was something I needed to do. Sorry about the negativity of it, but you guys know, right? I hope so.

Thanks CANDC. I never really know what to say to other people. I'm pretty insightful, or so everyone tells me, but I'm not a trained psychologist... I don't want to say the wrong thing to someone who's hurting.

I also have a habit of saying way too much... for example I've edited about a page of text out of this post already

Thank you Anxious Minds. I'll think about what you said. I've thought it myself many times, but it sure isn't easy finding my own purpose. But I know it's true, whenever there's been an emergency, or a crisis, or the whole world is falling apart around me, those were the only times I felt... good. It might sound twisted to other people, but those were the only times I had a reason to be. I become strong, and help everyone else through it. Then when life goes back to normal... the gloom sets in again. It's a work in progress I guess.