[LelouchLamperouge]

Everyone is going to be celebrating, going out, and spending New Years Eve with their friends and loved ones. I'm going to be finding myself alone not doing anything with anyone and staying home. It's starting to finally sink in even worse than I can imagine...This is one of the most happiest and enjoyable moments for most people but I hate it right now. It has gotten me to thinking...I don't want a new year. I don't want to live a new year. Why do I even have to put myself through all of this when I could just no longer have to deal with any of it with "one fell swoop". This is going to be maybe of the worse triggers I'm going to have as of late....Maybe tonight will be a deciding factor for me...

Originally Posted by LelouchLamperouge

.Maybe tonight will be a deciding factor for me...

I hope you don't mean that.

[TheOriginalMe]

It is just another night, calendar dates are pretty meaningless anyway. I hate New Year, but I'm just concentrating on the one good thing that happened this year. Have you anything you can distract yourself with?

[cosmicrexia]

I feel you. Not only new year's eve, Christmas, my birthday, every party triggers me. Today i'm going to a party i don't want to go, and i'll probably drink too much... Again. I hope you get through this the best way you can.

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[waterknob1234]

Yes, its just another night. I am too tired to go out. I'm not doing much for New Year's. Find yourself a distraction, a movie to watch, book to read. And remember, after tomorrow its over and it is back to normal life. This too shall pass. And of course, you can talk to us.

[waterknob1234]

Oh, I forgot to add, I like the dog. I have an American Bulldog/lab mix. He is so sweet. I stay around for him. Is that your dog on the avatar or is it a picture?

[LelouchLamperouge]

Originally Posted by waterknob1234

Oh, I forgot to add, I like the dog. I have an American Bulldog/lab mix. He is so sweet. I stay around for him. Is that your dog on the avatar or is it a picture?

Thank you. That's my dog on the avatar. She's a pit bull and she is really sweet and smart.

I just can't think of anything good that happened for me within the past year nor am I looking towards anything in the future. So I find myself asking why bother to struggle with a meaningless and dreadful existence any longer?

[waterknob1234]

If nothing else, think of who would love and care for your dog as much as you. When I am at my worst depression, I think of stuff like this. I think of reasons to stay in this world. I think of people, such as my children, and other stuff to live for.

I know it's hard. Stay with us.

[puzzclar]

Here's a list of distractions.
http://forums.psychcentral.com/self-...ssignment.html
My t gave it to me as an assignment but it really helped, that is when I use one of them. For me sui is a form of escape from what ever is going on, so this list made an impact on what I can choose to do when things get to where they are for you. Make your own list, make it for you!

[Alter]

Its stupid how much importance people give to new years eve, and yes it also made me feel bad, another year has passed and im still a piece of nothing.

Another New Years Eve and not going out. I've lost track on how many NYE in a row that I have not gone out. But there were other years that I went out for NYE and it was not that great. I think it's very over rated. Plus I never liked going out to drive at that time. Everytime I've gone out I would see accidents that have happened, and it was upsetting to see them.

I've noticed that lately, I have been hearing on the news that a lot of bars and restaurants reported that they didn't do as well on NYE as they thought they would. So I get the feeling that less people are going out at that time.