[ShantheArtist23]

Good morning,

So I've been feeling like crap (like physically, like I always have the flu kind of crap) for a really long time now, and I went to the docs to see what was up. I had a bad feeling about going and I didn't want to go, but it was too late to cancel. So my moms sitting in there of course putting in all of her opinions, making me sound bad (in my opinion), (my moms seriously full of lies). I told the doc I'd take the new medication they want me on, but I just can't being myself to do it. She then had the nerve to sit there and tell me that I was CHOOSING to be miserable and when I tried to protest she's like "Yes you are, I'm not even gonna argue with you." At that point I just got so tired of people making it all my fault that I just broke down and started crying.
Everyone has made me out to be such a bad, defiant , unruly resistant person and I don't even know who I am anymore!! So I'm just pissed because to them, it's either medication or no way. I don't know what to do, theyre all so mean to me, including my mom.
> Sorry.

[tealBumblebee]

Shane,

I'm sorry you had to go through that. Some people believe that without medication there is no hope - but as someone who's never taken medication I can tell you that there is. Medicine or no medicine - action is required. Inaction, is, of itself an action. If they have not been in the situation then they have no idea how hard it is to do things when you are depressed. If you're of age (I see you are 17, its of age in some places and not in another) - I would absolutely ask for a referral for a new doctor and not take my mother (or anyone else) with me to or inside the appointments. I think that perhaps the doctor and your mother were just frustrated because they don't know how to help you but what they fail to understand is that you, as the person with depression, are dealing with way more then just that. Things that seem simple to them are not simple to someone who is depressed. Every thing is a mountain. Perhaps you can talk to your mother about switching to a new doctor with an open slate and without her skewed influence in order to get a better chance at getting help. Having the criticism of someone who is supposed to help you and someone who is supposed to protect you all in the same room is leaving you without any options, so the next step is to simply leave them out of your plans. Just my humble opinion. *hugs* I'm sorry you are struggling so.

[AncientMelody]

If you're wary of medication, and at your age the risks certainly are higher than with someone older, exercise and therapy are valid treatment options for mild or moderate depression. The exercise should be a very structured plan though, just as you would take a pill on a daily basis, you would want to get something written down and take each exercise session "as prescribed" so to speak.

It's worth seeing your doctor perhaps once more if you're willing to and explain that you're not avoiding treatment you just want to try a different treatment, see if she's willing to help you get set up with a therapist or an exercise program. if not you deserve better care. Good luck!

[ShantheArtist23]

Thanks guys. I was thinking of trying to tell her of a different treatment kind of thing. Maybe sometime I'll try that.