Sad and solitary

First of all I'm not suicidal at all, however I am currently going through a rather difficult time in my life. ALSO, this is my very first time seeking outside help, let alone my first time forum (not a super great introduction to threads). But here is my story.
I have been in college for awhile and out of the years I have been here, not a single one is positive. Beginning it, I was a very fat person and was always teased about my weight and being one of those nerdy kids, I was picked on by the high school peaked freshmen who later brag about getting sex. However I was always that nice guy that people would go to to talk if help is needed. When the glorious act of sex was going on throughout the halls, I was the only one by myself in my room. Dating seemed impossible and was always told no. I've tried being cool or hip, I even developed a whole second persona that is a complete reversal of who I am. I even spent a year losing weight dangerously (100lbs in less than a year) just to change my outward appearance in hopes someone would find me attractive. When I was deemed "fit" I tried to go on dates again, however I can never get a second date because I'm just that nice nerdy kid that's weird, so I've never had a girlfriend. I can't help being who I am and I know omitting most things that make me me will make me feel empty. Like a piece of hollow clay that's just being molded into an acceptable shape but with no interior, it just falls. Bottom line, I'm just really sad and quite lonely and I really do not know what to do. I've spent days in my room just doing nothing, reflecting on what is negative about me. With no insight from failed dates I have NO idea what I'm doing wrong as a person and it makes me feel ******. Just any help would be nice

Hi anotherus3r...

I don't have any great words of wisdom...I wish I did.

It really sounds as if you know that you need to be true to yourself and not try so hard to be what you think other people want. Kudos for that--it's something that many people never get...

Are you seeing a counselor? Your college should have one and I urge you to take advantage. It's not so good to spend so much time with your own thoughts, as you know.

As far as the dating game goes, I'm REALLY no help. I do believe that things happen when you least expect them to. Perhaps you could focus on your school work? Join some clubs?

Please be kind to yourself, keep posting, and know that there are wonderful people (here and elsewhere) that are willing to listen.

I understand how you feel and I agree with sophiesmom you should see a counselor it would be a beginning. I'm sure there are girls out there who would love to date you. Just because you have not met the right one doesn't mean you should give up. Stay true to yourself and the things you like doing and you'll find girls who like the same things. Keep looking for answers. This is a great place to find support.

I really feel you. College is being the same for me and I know my peers pity me because I never go on dates while they brag about their significant others everyday. I get set up on pity dates but I always refuse because they wouldn't like me anyway. I don't really have any advice; I'm in no place for it. Just wanted to let you know that I know how that feels. Hang in there, 'kay?