Hi all.

I was hospitalized for the first time about a year ago. I have GAD & MDD. I found a committed partner post-hospitalization...only to find out that his parents disapproved of my MDD... I was deeply insulted and shattered.
We have split since then, our split was a disaster, and I have been broken ever since. Our split was a numbing experience I haven't recovered from yet.

Still, I have somehow made progress. I have a T, and I am proud of myself for finally having one. I am also back in university.

I am worried though. I feel as if I will not leave this funk no matter what I am doing. I fear my hopelessness will get worse.

I am not sure if I have a question or a single, pressing problem that I would like advice for.

All I know is that I worry for myself. I can feel my depression taking over my daily life. My energy is low, my motivation isn't as present, my feelings are disappearing.

I'm not quite sure what to do.

[kaliope]

well, discussing these feelings/thoughts/signs with your t would be the first step. I don't know what happened for me. all those years of depression I prayed for that magic wand and then I was hit over the head with it and I saw the light finally. I don't know what made it better. the right antidepressant, the right t, a combination of them both. the full realization that I was going to be dead if something didn't change. what helps me the most is the balance scales in my signature. life gets out of balance and we start feeling depressed and anxious. if we can find resources/coping skills for each of the things weighing us down then we will be better off. that is what I do when I am feeling out of wack.....I hope you get to feeling better.

Aw, thanks, Kaliope. I know I'm struggling right now. I'm not headed down the right path, but I agree that I should talk to my T.

I'll also have to consider not tapering off my anti-depressant, which I have been doing for several months. I think I need it. I honestly do feel worse.

[waterknob1234]

This would probably not be the time to taper off your anti-depressant. I am sure it also hurts when your relationship with your partner dissolved. Love and hugs to you.

[artichack]

Definetley don't self medicate...........disaster waiting to happen...and it will....therapists can only do so much...than the ball is in your court....hope you start feeling better......

Thanks to all very much. Indeed my pain is great and unfortunate.

[Clara22]

Originally Posted by opaquemind0

Thanks to all very much. Indeed my pain is great and unfortunate.

For us, living in the present moment is something too difficult. Instead, we are used to spending a lot of time worrying about the future, particularly about our depression's future development. Sometimes, regrets and recreation of past events hurt our souls, as well. Both, past and future, are source of immense pain for our minds. If you have the opportunity, try to approach a spiritual practice that can help you to focus more on the present moment. Together with therapy and meds, this learning is helping me a lot.
I am sending you a hug