[CyborgGirl001]

I feel as if everything was planned. My demise, my feelings, my disdain. My antropophobia, my apathetic nature toward the world, humans and life...my frustration and emptiness with no real core. This machine knows that it will cease to function, and that it is not a matter of time...it was already known. I have always felt this way since my earliest years alive, and I feel there truly is no escape, just apathy towards the problem.

Well, in my honest opinion that isn't an uncommon feeling when dealing with depression. I have noticed within myself that I have certain destructive habits when I am in a down state and tend to act on them as if it is programmed in my mind to do so. I do find that self moderation and having a support system to point out when the behaviors are happening will help you understand when it is happening and eventually you can learn how to alter the behavior and maybe channel towards the good. Try not to let yourself get down hon.

apathy is the last boss, i think. so hard to overcome much of anything with it at the reins. unlike happiness and sadness, there's no reprieve. hard to even "hope" it will get "better" (whatever better means) someday. but maybe it will. any small things worth focusing on? i get lost in fiction, myself. that seems to be the only place i can feel certain things appropriately. if only for a short time. and that's probably okay if it gets someone through the day.

signed
a fellow apathybot

[CyborgGirl001]

Originally Posted by ChaoticInsanity

Well, in my honest opinion that isn't an uncommon feeling when dealing with depression. I have noticed within myself that I have certain destructive habits when I am in a down state and tend to act on them as if it is programmed in my mind to do so. I do find that self moderation and having a support system to point out when the behaviors are happening will help you understand when it is happening and eventually you can learn how to alter the behavior and maybe channel towards the good. Try not to let yourself get down hon.

Thank you. But it is hard for me to even get a support system. I am so fearful and mistrustful towards most of the population.

[CyborgGirl001]

Originally Posted by bearpaws

apathy is the last boss, i think. so hard to overcome much of anything with it at the reins. unlike happiness and sadness, there's no reprieve. hard to even "hope" it will get "better" (whatever better means) someday. but maybe it will. any small things worth focusing on? i get lost in fiction, myself. that seems to be the only place i can feel certain things appropriately. if only for a short time. and that's probably okay if it gets someone through the day.

signed
a fellow apathybot

I currently have nothing to focus on. I should find something.

[CyborgGirl001]

I give up. I just do not like or care for the world or people. It is better to stay in my mind.

Originally Posted by CyborgGirl001

I feel as if everything was planned. My demise, my feelings, my disdain. My antropophobia, my apathetic nature toward the world, humans and life...my frustration and emptiness with no real core. This machine knows that it will cease to function, and that it is not a matter of time...it was already known. I have always felt this way since my earliest years alive, and I feel there truly is no escape, just apathy towards the problem.

Originally Posted by CyborgGirl001

I give up. I just do not like or care for the world or people. It is better to stay in my mind.

I hope you don't mind me saying this but I don't think you are as apathetic as you may think. I don't think an apathetic mind would think about escape. I also see many more negatives about the human race and interaction with people but I also see positives. Its academic anyway though because we are human. Apathy is the absolute worst part of depression. At times I feel like I've lost the ability to love and to care. I hate that feeling.

[CyborgGirl001]

Originally Posted by George H.

I hope you don't mind me saying this but I don't think you are as apathetic as you may think. I don't think an apathetic mind would think about escape. I also see many more negatives about the human race and interaction with people but I also see positives. Its academic anyway though because we are human. Apathy is the absolute worst part of depression. At times I feel like I've lost the ability to love and to care. I hate that feeling.

I am not currently that apathetic but there are times in which I feel nothing and care for nothing at all. Right now I am just questioning everything about myself and why I am so miserable. O me miseram!