Daily Check In — Ups and Downs Thread 14

Apr 16, 2015, 02:27 PM

Miserable

Smileonmyface · Apr 16, 2015, 02:35 PM

i wanted to add a hug for shy poet girl. i am sorry you are hurting so much. like so many others here, I echo the sentiment that we are here for you.

Smileonmyface · Apr 16, 2015, 02:44 PM

doing okay. did the preschool thing and brought kiddies to the park after where we had a picnic lunch of cheese and crackers and little one threw up all over herself. luckily i had a change of clothes in the car and we stayed a while. older one was afraid to climb up on a playground she used to navigate without fear last year. oh well. at least we got our outside time and now i don't feel so guilty letting them watch tv and being on the computer.

realizing that lately i have been on a very even keel and i am grateful for that. anxious about the season but otherwise doing okay. hoping it lasts.

Apr 16, 2015, 03:15 PM

Feeling like I'm headed towards another crisis. Scared. Don't know what to do. Don't know if I can handle it. If I can cope. I don't feel ready.

lizzyjb · Apr 16, 2015, 03:24 PM

Hard day. New money issues. Sad.

Nammu · Apr 16, 2015, 04:40 PM

Almost forgot my Pdoc appointment this afternoon. Remembered in the nick of time! I'm doing well but he kept questioning. Racing thoughts?, nope. Depressed?, nope. Trouble sleeping?, well I still wake up 3, 4 times a night, still have bad dreams but I'm averaging at least 6 hours, so it's good. I'm still amazed how well I'm doing on this cocktail it's like a miracle.

Keep looking forward there is hope.

Turtlesoup · Apr 16, 2015, 08:12 PM

Managed to get in the shower before my T appointment today...it had been a while

Still plodding along feeling like Eyeore today. Tired, pushing myself to do a few small things but...bleh. Trying to remember what feeling good really feels like-I know I felt that way recently but it seems like Led Zeppelin-Over the Hill & Far Away. I'm having such bad racing thoughts with this depression bout-wish I could sleep soundly for like a week. Hugs to all-glad to see some of us are feeling better-gives me hope

agma · Apr 16, 2015, 09:32 PM

Feeling really anxious tonight. My 17 month old is sick so it's going to be a long night

Apr 16, 2015, 09:48 PM

Still doing ok. This has been a long stretch for me. But I'm sick with a cold type virus that is knocking me down physically. Uhh to feel better physically and mentally!

hopeless2015 · Apr 16, 2015, 10:39 PM

Struggling this week....trying to get back on track but don't want to leave the house. Really was doin better for a bit

Nammu · Apr 16, 2015, 11:14 PM

I forgot to type about Tuesday. It was a fun day. I went to the class, then to the sit & fit group. After that I had to get the car registration paid for a new sticker. Wouldn't cha know, I kept the envelope and musta thew away the acual papers!! Decided to go anyway. Maybe they could help me, at least tell me what to do. Starting from the senior center I wasn't sure how to get there. I always take the back round about way as it's much less traveled and very pretty, especially this time of year with all the bluebonnet sand yellow flowers with green trees. I go to a out of the way DMV because there's no 3 hour lines. But to go that way meant go back home in the opposite direction.

I can do it! I can find my way from where I am, just a matter of heading the right direction, right? All roads connect eventually. I started off, and ended up going in a big circle! Ok let's try this way. Got so close and forgot one turn. I could see the DMV, wave even! But I was on a windy narrow road with no where to turn around safely. Futher and further I go. Finally I find a way to turn and Lo and behold three cars come from no place making it tricky.

Did I sit and cry, no, no depression. Did I get all rage mad, no, manic symptoms. I thought it was fun. Mind you there was no time limit, no appointment so that helped considerably by not having the stress of time. When I'm in a good stable place I love getting lost, I try to get lost on purpose it's fun and I find the coolest things and terrific shortcuts. I haven't done this in a long long time. It was a great day.

When I arrived they were able to get the stickers without the paper since I had my DL and licence number. How neat is that! Then I got to drive home the long pretty way. What a nice day it was. Stopped at the library and picked up a stack of books. Yeah, Tuesday was a good day.

Billtrick · Apr 17, 2015, 12:50 AM

I was final able to sleep without taking seroquel last night. But coming off of it has made my brain feel fried. I am also isolated from my family because they have no idea how to handle my depression. I am thrashing about inside my skull, pounding at the walls, it doesn't seem to do a god damn thing. I am tired. Again. As I keep posting. I hope the damage done from Seroquel is reversible and not that great. I'm rambling now. Good night everyone. Hope you have much better luck than I.

Apr 17, 2015, 05:32 AM

my meds are making me feel empty and useless and numb. i think it's the antipsychotic. it's taken away all my creativity and made me slower and less intelligent

Apr 17, 2015, 06:53 AM

Another day of feeling pretty depressed. Just have to push myself to do absolutely everything. Don't really feel like doing anything. That's about all I have to say for now.

tigerlily84 · Apr 17, 2015, 08:04 AM

Yesterday was just a bad day. I felt pretty horrible and irritable... not to mention exhausted. I'm not even sure what time I went to bed... I want to say maybe 7:30 or so. I woke up at 4am, feeling better. I hope that this is the way it'll go today at work.

I also watched Birdman last night, and I really enjoyed it. I've been wanting to see it for some time now. Good actors, and the style in which it was shot was incredible. Anyway, I highly recommend it.

unhappydaze · Apr 17, 2015, 08:09 AM

Feeling invisible & increasingly isolated

Apr 17, 2015, 08:22 AM

feeling frigging nervous for therapy WHY

Randle McMurphy · Apr 17, 2015, 09:26 AM

I feel like I am being worn down. I had enthusiasm the other week, this week I am wondering where the hell it's gone.

puzzclar · Apr 17, 2015, 10:06 AM

I feel tired, but very excited for a job interview.

Apr 17, 2015, 10:47 AM

I would be so grateful to not feel quite so incredibly depressed and hopeless just for once but i feel like I'm stuck and have been for most of my life. Im in my late 40s and had depression for as long as i have memories. .

My son got punched and kicked yesterday (i wasn't there but i know he wouldn't have started it) and the police told him he was lying. Im not impressed. He had a large bruise and the policeman said "that is consistent with a fall off a bike not a punch. I think its because this boy he has been hanging with is the son of a policeman. My son gets blamed in other situations that i know are not his fault. I feel so bad for him.