[dexter]

had a very long and stressful day yesterday... stayed out of bed all day but mostly because i had to deal with stuff and i was SO noticably fatigued all day. had to deal with my mortgage bank again (i'm not up the creek yet but i'm sitting in the boat with the water racing by ready to launch) and then had to stay up so a coworker could drop by the last of my stuff from the office... and of course that just dredges up ALL of the stress of the past 7 months (i've been out of work for 7 months now ) and i found the time waiting for him to show up just full of very stressful anxiety. yuk.

i have a doc appt in manhattan today so i am up early. looking forward to the trip but the doc is just going to yell at me for going so long without a visit or a blood test, then yell at me again when i tell him i can't schedule a long overdue colonoscopy because i can't pay for it right now.

hoping to just come home today and crash, and enjoy the last episode of Friends tonight.

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[Fuzzybear]

Congratulations on staying out of bed all day, dex! I wish I knew an answer to the anxiety of waiting for a phone call or waiting for someone to show up ....

Good luck at the docs today. (I am very overdue for a blood test )

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[somebody]

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I hope today is a better day for you...hopefully the doctor will go easy on you.
Take care
Somebody

[bptoo]

Dave, yeah I'd say that stress was a keyword here. I know I'm late with this response, so I'll say that I hope you handled the day OK, and gave as good as you got with your doctor. i hope you're still managing to get those little cat naps in. I really do believe that they can give those batteries a recharge. As long as you keep then reasonably short, they should be fine.

Any chance that the doc might reduce his rates for the colonoscopy, and then let you make payments on the balance? It might be worth asking about.

I'm still trying to digest the final episode of Friends. It wasn't as intense as I thought it would be. Me and my high expectations....

Have a good one,
Greg



"Beauty is truth, truth is beauty - that is all you know on earth, and all you need to know"

[dexter]

OK the good... i made it to my support group last night... put in an extra effort because a friend from my IOP time was visiting from her support group to the one I attend.

I am also hoping to join them all in the park today... time is growing close so I am not sure I will make it, but if I don't, I don't feel as if it is the depression keeping me from doing so.

I am having the colonoscopy on the 20th and yes the doc is going to work something out with the insurance that I have. It is still stressful for me that I can't afford it but not NEARLY as stressful as not being able to do it because I can't afford it.

Thanks everyone.

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