Feeling lost and scared

I was at another site but things got really strange there and a lot of people left. It was a case of some serious abuse going on, it turns out by someone running the site!! Is was shocking. So I am shell shocked. I figured out what was going on and was gotten rid of very quickly. Loads of people left and scattered all over. I am missing that site and realizing how important it was to me in my day to day stabilization and sense of connection. I am sad and angry that that is gone. And I feel violated. Very violated. The law is involved in it so it could be a court case--so it's not something small or my imagination.

I also need a job. I have had some money for a change and normally I can get a job to tide me over in a few weeks. It has now been 6 months!!! and I cannot get a job. I am talking about your basic customer service job. I am getting very scared. My last several jobs were pretty short. A couple times they decided I was not right and a couple of times I decided they were not right. I have never been let go so many times in my life as I have these last several years. It has been hell. I also am worried because one temp agency changed my resume around and made those short jobs look like contract positions--meant to be short. I think I need to update those resumes and correct that. I am just so worried. I lost my support group, was violated, and cannot find a job. And as always when times are especially hard I miss my dog. My dog Beau is the greatest love of my life. He died almost 2 years ago. I have cried for him all but a handful of days during that time. I miss him constantly. I have had pets before but that was nothing like this. This was a match made in heaven with such a mutual love it is hard to comprehend. I keep hoping he will come back to me. But I fear he won't and that the rest of my life will have a background of sadness to it because of the horrible pain of losing Beau. I tried other dogs and it was a disaster. I miss Beau. The love of my life. Please pray for me.

Wow sounds like a lot is happening right now...

Well I think you have found a safe home now - so welcome to PC!

Hope things get better for you and that you keep posting.

robyn i am new here too and so far everyone has been really helpful and supportive of me. i'm very glad i found this place, it feels like a safe one. i'm sorry you have so much going on right now. i have had lots of problems keeping jobs too over the years so i understand that. i hate looking for work and interviewing, it makes me feel sick.

i'm sorry about your dog too. i love animals so much, they don't judge, they just love. i still miss every pet i've ever lost.

anyway i really hope you will feel better soon. keep posting here. we are here and you aren't alone. sending hugs...

Welcome, Robyn. I hope things will be much better now that you have found PC. Good luck with your job hunt. There are still plenty of customer service positions out there.

I will share with you about my perfect dog, Dash, who died over 3 years ago. He still appears frequently to me in dreams. Like you, I've tried other dogs since, always with problems. Then, I have to recover from another failed attempt. Each time, the new dog got another home, but I think for some of us there is just one perfect dog. The problem is, they don't live long enough.

Have you introduced yourself at "New Member Introductions?"

I am sorry to hear that you are having such a hard time right now. I know what your going through.

I to have found this to be a safe place to open up and get support.

Robyn, i'm sorry that you are having such a hard time right now. my dog, Tippy, died in 2001 and i still cry. he was the best friend i've ever had. his photo should be in my gallery here. i changed stuff around but i think it's there. i believe that there is that "one" dog. BUT i've had several. i'm 63. and i've had them at different times in my life experiences.

the job thing sucks. i know exactly how you feel. i've gone without a job for different periods and it is so scary. but i think if you just keep plugging away at it, you'll find something.

xoxoxo pat