[Ixodon]

I'm getting so tired of this. My mind is never at peace and my thoughts are always racing, and I'm always overwhelmed by too many thoughts, depression, regrets, and feeling bad about the future. It's hard for me to think straight or think clearly at times I get so frustrated and overwhelmed. I'm very discontent and unsettled with things, and it's been a long time since I've felt normal about just about anything. Because of certain situations or things that have been happening, I've been majorly depressed for almost a full year now and it still hasn't gone away. In fact, I feel worse the more time goes on. It's as if my problems are still going unresolved and I still try to fix them, but that's the issue and that's what's frustrating me, I feel like I should be beyond this point by now and things should be back to normal. I'm still struggling to find a decent job. It's been a long time since I've woke up feeling happy or at least normal or stable in my life. I usually wake up feeling bad that another day is here. I'm so tired of the only time I feel good or slightly better is when I'm with friends or really drunk. Or the only time I feel at peace is when I'm sleep. I don't want to keep going through life like this. All I want is peace of mind and to feel normal again.

[Bunluva]

I really feel your pain lxodon. I identify with what you have just written-a lot. I know this sounds stupid and it won't solve your issues or heal you, but when I have too many thoughts including racing ones I put earphones on and put some good music on. My theory is if I am singing in my head(or out loud if you are ok with that)there is no way I can think all of those thoughts at the same time that I sing. I find it at least gives my mind a slight break for a bit.

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[Bunluva]

And please don't think I am belittling what you are saying. I only told you what eases things a little for me, it may not be the same for you. I try not to assume things. I dislike when people assume that they know what is best for me.

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(((((Ixoden))))))

Probably not helpful but i know how you are feeling, ive been there and i promise it gets better.

[BluGangsta]

You just described my life. The only time i feel any type of happiness is when im drunk or asleep.

Ixodon, I can completely identify with what you're saying. I feel much the same way. I know it really sucks, doesn't it? Things have got to improve some day.

[Fuzzybear]

[Purplesept2007]

Ixodon,
I have been were your at right now. The only difference is I do not drink I stopped when I started medication for my mental health over 8 years ago. I was probably in that state for a good solid 6 years. I know how it feels it is absolutely positively horrible (and maybe that does not say it enough). Two things if you are doing any medication please keep working with you doctor to find the right combination (it takes a lot of trial and error unfortunately). Second is if you have a therapist be as open as you can so hopefully you can work through it. I have been in therapy for 10 years now with only one short break for a few months because I really thought I had gotten to a place where I did not need anymore but jumped the gun a little bit. And if you have neither therapy or medication it may be something you want to look into. If you want to talk anytime please go ahead an PM me I would be happy to discuss in further detail with you. Hang in there I know how tough this is and there is no simple answer or magic pill but the PC group is definitely here for you. It is a great place to talk things through with individuals who understand.

[Ixodon]

Originally Posted by Bunluva

I really feel your pain lxodon. I identify with what you have just written-a lot. I know this sounds stupid and it won't solve your issues or heal you, but when I have too many thoughts including racing ones I put earphones on and put some good music on. My theory is if I am singing in my head(or out loud if you are ok with that)there is no way I can think all of those thoughts at the same time that I sing. I find it at least gives my mind a slight break for a bit.

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Music is a really big part of my life, so yeah, I always enjoy listening to music. It does make me feel better.

[Ixodon]

Originally Posted by Snuggles22

Ixodon,
I have been were your at right now. The only difference is I do not drink I stopped when I started medication for my mental health over 8 years ago. I was probably in that state for a good solid 6 years. I know how it feels it is absolutely positively horrible (and maybe that does not say it enough). Two things if you are doing any medication please keep working with you doctor to find the right combination (it takes a lot of trial and error unfortunately). Second is if you have a therapist be as open as you can so hopefully you can work through it. I have been in therapy for 10 years now with only one short break for a few months because I really thought I had gotten to a place where I did not need anymore but jumped the gun a little bit. And if you have neither therapy or medication it may be something you want to look into. If you want to talk anytime please go ahead an PM me I would be happy to discuss in further detail with you. Hang in there I know how tough this is and there is no simple answer or magic pill but the PC group is definitely here for you. It is a great place to talk things through with individuals who understand.

Thanks, a lot of times I don't know who to talk to about my problems. I'm really considering therapy, I don't have a therapist right now.