Feeling so emotionally drained... sitting here and the tears just keep coming. My 5 year old boy is sitting nearby playing lego. Taking some deep breaths and waiting for this to pass...

My life isn't that complicated, yet it is at the same time. I'm trying to make changes as I'm very unhappy with my current state of affairs.

Change is always easier said than done. Not even knowing where to begin. The inside battle I'm constantly fighting is wearing me down. Sometimes I think it's a cycle, as I've gotten through it all before. But during this phase, it gets harder and harder.

I reach out to friends, family. I feel like it's the same old same old. They must be tired of hearing me cry. So then I suffer alone. The pain flows with the tears and I'm waiting for the bucket to fill up so it's time to be emptied and start anew. If that makes any sense!

[CANDC]

Welcome to Psych Central (PC) Zayabean. Sorry to hear you are feeling depressed. Many people here at PC have challenges so they understand how difficult that can be. I find that when I sleep enough my depression is less.

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I hear you. My friends are tired of me too and I try not to lean on them as much anymore. I hope you can get to the place you want to be.

[chameleon_jogirl]

I do understand and it does make sense.
Just having a child of 5yrs is demanding, whilst depression can make the simplest tasks seem insurmountable.
Even though the rewards given us as parents, far outweigh the chores, it is still okay to say that it's hard work and I think I may need some help.
The constant inner battling thrown in the mix, only duplicates and triplicates your responsibilities as a parent, whilst draining most or all enjoyment you would normally experience with your child.
I entirely empathize with you and hope you reach out more and find the appropriate support that secures a healthy and happy future with your family.

[eggplantlife]

Im sorry you are feeling low. It is hard to change. Sonetimes the tears are good that it is a releaser. Today, i cried a bit. Very short. It felt like a big relief.

Few years ago, i cried almost every morning. Waking up like that was horrible. I took some meds that helped, but aren't taking them anymore. I needed it to stop it because i knew it became a habit.

Now i don't cry. But today i did. I realized that i wasn't able to really cry because of my situation. It felt good to let it go....all the pressures. I hope it was like that for you.

i'm so sorry you're suffering. i'm here for you always on PC. please keep posting.

[waterknob1234]

Hi Zayabean. Welcome to pc. Your post makes perfect sense. I am sorry you are hurting so much. I understand how you feel. And yes, change is hard and scary, even when it is necessary. We are always here for you.

Thanks everyone. The tears have subsided for now. Feeling more stable today, not so broken inside. I'm glad I found this place to reach out.

[KEB1990]

I can relate all to well to your story. Sorry your haveing a hard time. Hope you find the peace you need.