why do i bother???

Why do i bother? I am not worth it. There is no point to me. I am a useless, pointless, stupid piece of crap. I cause people such hurt and pain at seeing me the way i am. I take up peoples time with my problems, when they pale in comparision to the probems of some people. I am not worth anything to anyone, and the sooner i believe that the better.

STOP.

You are trying to convince yourself to believe a bunch of CRAP.

Stop comparing your pain to other people's. Some people deal well with some stuff, and some don't. It does NOT make you worthless. My T told me that a person's pain and problems are their own, and they can't be compared to anyone else's because then you're devaluing the person. I'm not going to let you do that.

You're not taking up anyone's time here, not mine, not anyone's. People CHOOSE to communicate with you, and spend time with you. That means they care about you.

You have worth - it's just a bit low at the moment. Or maybe this is a fairly constant state (feeling worthless), then welcome to the club.

You are not stupid, and you are not anything you've said in this post.

I'm sorry I'm so confrontational, but I really identified with your post and nobody deserves to feel like that.

Take care of YOU. You are important, especially to people here on PC.

((((((((((((((((((((((((((MadMusician)))))))))))))))))))))))

Please please PLEASE don't let yourself fall into that darkness!!! You DO have worth, and there are people out there (probably closer to you than you think) who WANT to spend time with you because they care for you greatly and want nothing more than to HELP you and see you happier!!! I know how incredibly painful it can be to feel the way you're feeling, but (even though this can seem more painful than just feeling worthless!!) you need to try and pull yourself up a little.

You should give yourself some seriously massive kudos for recognizing that the world does not revolve around you and other people are affected by your actions and feelings. STOP RIGHT THERE, because that's enough for now, don't go beyond that, and, IF YOU CAN (sometimes it gets bad enough that this isn't healthy, I know) see if you can work out a way to deal with your pain and hurt that helps you and puts less weight on others. More than likely, though, you're doing JUST FINE and other people around you aren't as pulled down by you as you think.

I'm sorry if that was just a bunch of random babble, but I sincerely hope and pray that things look up for you really soon!!!
luck&love,
~muse

A Real Good Question I'd like to ask You "Why Do You Bother??" "Why Do You Bother asking basically the same darn question over & over again" You get the same answer ever single time!!! How much longer is this going to go on?? I've responded to your same question twice with basically the same basic answers that everyone else answers & here you are again asking the same question again! Do you even bother reading all the posts you receive? I put a lot of thought into mine! I know I'm being tough but here comes the TRUTH even rougher, Ready? You ARE worthy to me & everyone here. We care & love you so very much. AND you CANNOT/WILLNOT convince me or anyone else you are a lousy no-goodnick! .You are an invaluable human being. You have beautiful qualities & attributes that have helped ppl. out you may not even be aware of! After all no has, or ever will, exist just like you - ever. You are unique - so very special. The sooner you believe THIS the better!!

I understand MadMusician. We ask the same questions over and over because their is not simple solution to this disease. We can even kow that the dark thoughts that flood our emotions are not true, but objective, literal truth is overwhelmed by the diseased emotions.

I believe we ask the same questions, and make the same self-belitting statements over and over because they become the only way we have of reaching out to the world to ask for help.

I don't know if that's true for MM, but I know it is true for me.

Where did you get the idea you had to have a point? You are a lovely person, not a pencil! I'm sorry you don't feel your problems are "good enough" for others to consider and if your problems aren't that important/big enough, then how is it you think you can cause others so much hurt and pain? You can't have it both ways :-)

I suspect you "bother" because that's all that we're here for. Everyone is here to bother about themselves/their lives. You can't bother about someone else's, you only have your own and it sounds like you're doing well by yourself! You are worth something to yourself or you wouldn't bother posting. Good for you! I'm glad you shared your pain with me.

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I'm glad you shared your pain with me.

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I am glad you shared your pain with me, because I am in pain, too, and struggling. I don't want you to be in pain, but it helps to know that I am not alone, that I have a disease, and that we are all fighting the good fight against it.

i can help you carry your pain. i have mine and we can just walk along together.......all of us. xoxoxo pat

Fayerody ..that is a beautiful sentiment.

Together we can ease the pain..... we understand and in many ways have been in a similar place...

Peace... and hope...in digging out.

sorry if i offended you wth my post mlpHolmes. I DO read all the replies and I am sorry if it may not seem like i do. Dont worry, i wont bother posting again.

PLEASE bother!! Wants2Fly said it perfectly--we're all tryng to figure out the why and how of what we're going through, and if that means asking the same question again and again, do so until you find your answer!!

((((((((((((((((((mm))))))))))))))))))))))))

hey, we want to bother because we love you oK? I HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD FOR YOU WHEN I AM UP TO HELPING, LIKE ALL OF
ooops sorry - here, if we have a bad day we have to look after ourselves and ask for help, if it's a good day we feel able to help others if we are a little stronger, i see it as one big family here, there is always someone who will support.

we look after ourselves and others, just like you do. you helped my so much in the past. you know you can pm me anytime, love you - hang in there because you are one special person.

kerry xoxoxoxoxox

Please do not stop posting because one person gave you a response that pulled you down. We each come here with our own issues. The supportive responses you have received far outnumber the one.

(((((((madmusician)))))))

try to hang in there..... i'm trying too and i'm with you. and keep posting!

MadMusician -- It has been 3 days since you posted to this thread. Can you let us know if you are okay? Thank you.