[okiedokie]

I'm just really tired. Had a week off last week and returned to work today. It was all the same crap. The same people sitting around the same tables, all the damn politics. People quitting, people getting fired, the tension is so thick it is palpable. My old boss sucked. My new boss sucks. No communication. What is communicated are lies. No direction. Expected to do way too much for too little. It's no fun anymore. Nothing is fun anymore. You can't trust anybody any farther than you can throw 'em.

What a small, crappy little life. There's gotta be more than this.

And it's disheartening to read the entire list of posts in this forum from other people who feel as I do. There just doesn't seem to be enough medication in the world to cure all our woes...

Now what? Go to bed, to possibly sleep, just so I can get up and do it all over again.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((( okie )))))))))))))))

It's not you who sucks...........

[drunksunflower]

Sometimes, perception is in the eye of the beholder

i understand, but if we can slog forward one more day....tomorrow may be a lot better! i know yesterday i felt really awful and today i feel decent. i "love" decent!!!

[Reesie]

I'm sorry okiedokie; it sounds like you are ready for another week off! The first day back was rough. I hope you can level out a little bit. Ouch!

[RACEKA]

Okiedokie I couldn't have said it better myself. There has to be more than this. Same ol, same ol.

[Wants2Fly]

Sometimes I feel this way, too. I suppose people have felt this way for a long time. Wasn't the line "Most men lead lives of quiet desperation" written back in the late 1800s? When was Walden Pond written?

Humanity has created a world that leads to alienation and emotional barrennes. I'm sorry to sound so gloomy, but it is the depression forum, after all.

[okiedokie]

Thank you to all of you for your posts. It REALLY means a lot. I look forward to reading your replies. You all mean so much to me.

I tried to work things out with that colleague who betrayed me so badly last week and she wouldn't hear a word, feeling or thought I wanted to express to her. I finally just told her what loss our friendship was. She said something snotty about ruining her day and off she went. Later on, a mutual friend with her in tow, came to sit by me in a meeting. She gave me the same snarly face, forcing herself to say hello to me. I did the most immature thing I could possibly do and that was get up and leave. I got halfway across the parking lot and forced myself to go back because I HAD to be at that meeting. But, I didn't sit by her.

One minute I think I can move on and then I see her, and all these ugly feelings of betrayal just choke me. I just don't know what I will do to resolve this.

I came home and took a 3 hour nap. You're right Pat, maybe tomorrow will be better.
Thanks again everyone!
Okie

Hi Okiedokie,
OMG! Office politics are the worst! I HATE office politics! GRRRR~
It's so immature and there's so much backstabbing. (I just realized- it's so much like my family dynamics.)
Please- don't let it get you down. Forget the narly faced moron-just do your job and say what you have to say to anyone in a way that's sooo polite they'll KNOW you're telling them to kiss your butt.
(((((((OkieDokie))))))))

[Wants2Fly]

Don't let the turkeys get you down.

[okiedokie]

Thanks, guys. I appreciate your support.
Okie