Hello guys and gals. First I want to say this was a extremely hard for me to decide to post, do to the fact its a teenage problem in an adult situation. Anyway enough with my starting explanation here is whats wrong....

I'm a teenager, I've never really fit in, when I have I felt guilty or wrong(a topic me and my T are going over). Anyway I met a girl, who to me was a mere image of me, very attrative and my best friend at sight.

I talked to her for about a month, it was so neat, we connected on many lvls espcially with poetry....I wrote her all the time, both of us where poets......it was like a dream come true.

It was so so so so so weird for me I mean school above all is my worst enemy, people being the problem. Weeks went by, we began dating. Weeks went by again, joy for me I finally thought "i'm finally a teenager" . Like data on star trek who wanted to be human .

Then all went wrong. She wrote me one day saying things, that scared me, things that where.....me. She wanted to nver see me again, saying of how depressed she was , how she made a deal with satan..things a teenager would normally say, but in a shocking., and unexpected way. Being me, I jumped back not giving up on her. For weeks I wrote her, she barely looked at me. Weeks and weeks and weeks went by, she never looked or smiled at me, nothing. She is a loner, only has 1 friend =(.

I notified her sister I thought she was going through some rough times, and even recommended to her , herself to a doctor(therapist). She said her mom wouldnt, (I met her mom she's a sub teacher and I know she wouldn't care she loves her)

Anyway jumped to MY PROBLEM. Thats been 7 + months ago, same thing I finally gave up =( , I tried and tried even recently, anyway lately I've been having tons of dreams, horrible ones, with her in them. Their not actually horrible its just they make me feel so sad, so lonely and remind me of how bad my lifes become trying to become a teenager. They're weekly and wont give up......i love this girl because she's more then some stupid teenage relationship it was a bond of....something I dont know how to explain. ................help guys plzzzzzzzzz

[bipolar_bear]

I really don't have much advice other than what you have tried. I just wanted you to know I am here and I care. Please take care.

BB