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Hey everyone! I am a young college student and i was just diagnosed with sever depression, anxiety, panic disorder, ADD, phobia of public and very love self-esteem. The last three years i have battled with all these disorders but instead of getting helped, i hid it all because at the time my parents didn't understand what was going on with me. A year ago i hit rock bottom, and my parents finally after years of silent calls for help they realized something was wrong. Unfortunately it was to late, i was at my breaking point and at that point i was ready to take my own life. Thank god for my mother, i owe my life to her, the night i was going to take my life she realized something was wrong and didn't leave my side that whole day and even slept with me and continued to feed my mind with good things. After that day my mom got me into see a doctor and i started to get help.
I am 20 years old and right now my life is gone, i have no friends, i have no actives, i barley leave my house...this is not the life of a young 20 year old women. i need help and support. I need someone to tell me life is going to be okay and I'm going to live out my dream of being a wife and mommy. Please help me and give me advice and let me know what works for you. I am such a loving person and i have completely lost who i am and I'm so broken. |
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I'm so glad you've started to get help. That was the most important thing to do. I struggle/have struggled with a lot of the same problems you do. I just wanted to let you know that it DOES get better and it does get easier. When I was your age I was sure I was going to grow old alone and become a "crazy cat lady." Now I am 33 and while I still have some bad times, I am happily married and my husband and I are trying to have a baby. I don't have lots of friends, but I do have several close ones. I'm active in my community and get out of the house without problems almost every day. Obviously everyone's situation is different--I just wanted to let you know that what you are feeling and experiencing now is not an indicator of what the rest of your life will be like. ![]()
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Does your school have free counseling services? I'm using my school's psychological center right now and my current therapist is the best I've had thus far. I hate when people tell me to think positive, recite affirmations, or do any of that stuff, so I'm not going to recommend that. However, it will be okay. Even when you're depressed or feeling low, it doesn't last forever. Sometimes, the opposite side of the depression spectrum isn't "amazing"... sometimes, it's just contentment. Sadness passes. Just keep that in mind. People always say to imagine yourself as a child and imagine yourself comforting the child you used to be. I do that, but instead, I imagine the future version of me comforting myself now. I imagine an older version of me who has a husband and a nice job (and two dogs!) and I imagine her telling 19 year old me that everything will work out eventually and that I just have to be patient. I imagine her tutting at how upset I am, as she knows it'll all be fine in the future. It usually makes me cry, but in a good way. I hope you feel better. |
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Sorry to hear about that. Most young college students go out and have fun in their lives I think. But depression and phobia ruin this. That's good that your mother is loving and caring and you start to get help now.
For me going out and talking to people helps. I'm not good at it, but I've joined a support group for these problems and also have a few friends that I can hang out with. Exercising helps too. An easier thing to do is just posting and talking to people on here. |
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Life is going to be okay, and you can recover from a depressive disorder. There's a lot of care and support on forums like this. I've found this to be useful in helping me sort things out in a somewhat anonymous forum. Medication and therapy have been useful to me as have the concerns and supports that I have received from family.
What struck me about your comment was that you referred to yourself as "broken". That was the same word that I told the social worker that admitted me to my one and only hospital stay. I remember someone - maybe an intake nurse - listening intently to my words about being broken. His empathy for my situation at that time led me to conclude that in being broken I could emerge repaired. Now I have the scars from the repair that are learning experiences that I take with me everywhere. I understand the strength that it takes to endure depression. It was that intake nurse who told me I'd be stronger after being broken. He is right. I do wish you well in your struggle with this affliction. I tell you about some of that which I endured to let you know that there is life after depression. And I've learned that staying connected here when I'm feeling well is just as important as being connected when I'm not well. Best wishes to you in your struggle |
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