I just don't know anymore!!!!

Im not even sure how to put into words what Im feeling Im just tired I feel like I have no direction in life right now and I’m getting too old for this I’m going to be 28 soon and I have no degree no husband no kids and no solid plan just some ******** waitressing job. i was on meds for bipolar2 but i went off after moving back home after living in nyc. Ive always wanted to be a top fashion or celebrity makeup artist and I did get some jobs when i was in nyc but my illness was getting in the way I would be so depressed I could barley function much less do photo shoots (i am a good makeup artist btw) my plan was to come home and go to school but now i feel like theres isn’t anything worth going to school for i do have some fine art credits but I don’t know if I wanna get the degree (i actually can go to school for free because of military benefits) its hard enough for me to work full time much less work and school. Ive thought about legal assisting but I’ve sent out resumes and no response I want a real career but my only passions are fine art painting and makeup. Ive been to tons of schools as well and have struggled at every single one. I feel like I fail at everything. tired of meds that don’t really help much. I guess I’m looking for advice from someone who understands and has been there.

Hi Artsygirl,

All that life direction and career stuff will be so much better if you can find a way to be enjoying your life and not being tortured with depression and possibly other stuff. Here's what I think is the best plan for depression:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

Notice that there are tons of things to try that have not only a good chance to help, but are just great for your health anyway.

If you can afford it, I would suggest giving yourself a little vacation (or staycation) over the summer. Forget about your career for a bit and concentrate everything on finding a way to feel better.

- vital

Sorry you feel so hopeless.

hi friend

life can throw a lot of disappointments. not everyone gets what they want. learn to accept that. it calms your inner turmoil and that may clear your mind to seek better opportunities.

Hi Artsygirl, I have been there and I am still there, 32 at the end of May now. Just no direction--I have a general studies degree because I could never figure out what to do. While I'm ok with no significant other or kids, I'm not ok with drifting along like dead wood in a river.

Cosmetology would still be a great thing to do, even if you don't get a certificate or anything. You can just pass out a business card out and do bridal makeup on Sundays when no salons are open. Always start small and see where it goes from there. There are so many people out there looking for work and it seems like we're all getting screened out for one reason or another.

Post your resume on career builder, monster...you'll get emails to be an insurance agent (lol) and maybe a recruiter will call with an odd job here and there. I went to a job fair recently and it was all sales... I am a food demonstrator so I get tired of these weird dead end jobs. If I were a "normal" ambitious person maybe knocking on people's doors asking about whether I can help them with social media for their business would be fine... But to me it all ends up like a rat race in the end.

I don't know if this even helped because I rambled on a bit... but just know you're not alone in "not hitting the milestones" you've wanted to hit.