Just some thoughts

I feel that depression and anxiety has infected every part of my life. I don't think I was always like this or perhaps I was just more resilient when I was younger. Still, I feel that I am now in an all out war with something that is threatening to overwhelm me.
There is a monument on our town town that honors those who have fallen in war. It states "Eternal vigilance is the price of peace." I feel that now applies to me. If I am not actively working to decrease my stressors and avoid events that trigger negative thoughts, if I am not quick to recognize and counter my negative thoughts, my fear and anxiety rise to overwhelm me. I do realize that depression follows the fear and anxiety. I think my depression is my response to my inability to keep my fear and anxiety at bay.
When I do write in my journal, take time to breathe, hit the gym, I do get a bit of respite. I just need to string enough of these times/actions together in my day to make it safely through. I need to be constantly working on a balanced mind and a calm heart. Eternal vigilance.
If one is being vigilant, one is not necessarily at peace. Still, it beats the alternative.
I have just begun posting to this forum but am finding it very helpful. Thank you.

hi friend

i read your first post and saw there was some emptiness in you. you can fill that with compassion. you see when you share your burden, people respond. that response not only comforts you but it comforts the respondents as well.