[lovebugg56]

Things have not been going the greatest ive been really depressed in February my grandfather died and my fiance was put back in jail, Well since all that has happened i have lost my apartment and now am bouncing between my friends house and my grandparents because of now having anywheres to go, Tuesday my Fiance got out of jail but its now thursday and i honestly feel like nothing matters and i feel like my family hates me, We have been searching for an apartment or a place to live and by we i mean My mom,sister and I, But even thats not helping because my mom is the only one who is working i cant seen to find a reliable job no matter how hard i try tomarrow i go back again to the temp agency who is starting to get on my nerves because they keep screwing me over because they are advertising postions available but not calling me back, I feel like my life is going down hill and im only 19 years old.
I just don't know what to do because I am trying to plan a wedding, Help my mom with funeral arraingments for my grandfather, Trying to find a job and Trying to help find a place to live. Less than a month ago i was sent to Emergency Psyciatric at the hospital because i was having suicidal thoughts and i didnt want to be here, I am just trying to understand what to do talking to people doesnt help me because of my anxiety but my depression is just getting alot worse. My family doesnt realize i need the help and support but i know my mom needs the help and support to because of the child support battle for my sister, I feel like things just dont want to go right for me or my family can someone give me some advice please

[Ruftin]

Hello (((lovebugg))). I'm sorry to hear of your grandfathers death. Death is extremely painful for those of us left behind. You're too young to feel you have to shoulder all of this responsibility. I understand you feel the need to support your mom and sister in all of this but you need to let your mom know how you feel. Can you ask the temp agency why they aren't calling you back the next time you go and get a name and number of a contact person so that he/she will know how serious you are? I do hope you are following up with your psychiatric care. You have to take care of you before you can take care of others. Weddings can be very stressful. Three of the most stressful things we can go through in our lives is a death, a move and a wedding. You have all three. You may want to extend the engagement until you can get things in your life settled. I hope everything works out for you. Be well.

[wa(o)rrior]

Hi friend

first you may want to focus on getting a job. don't let other things like finding a home or arranging for the funeral or the wedding distract you. one step at a time. when you get a job then take on the next one of finding a home near your workplace. and so on...

and learn to relax because health is wealth!!!

[lovebugg56]

Thank you both last night i actually filled out a job application and today they called me tuesday i go in for an interview, Its a 3 part interview my mom used to work there and she said all three parts will be in one day so if they send me for a drug test that day then i got the job, As for finding a place after i posted this last night things seemed to look up a little more, My mom is talking to her boyfriend about us moving back in with him when he gets his trailer moved and my grandmother said she is going to try taking out a loan and give us the money so we can move. As for the engagement we have decided instead of getting married next year we are going to change things because we have stuff we both need to work on and right now a wedding is just to stressful to deal with for the both of us