[Pathetic1Am]

I am just feeling so down yet flat..... I'm irritable but numb, everything annoys me, yet I am apathetic and just switch off to enable me to function. I have had reoccurring thoughts of

Possible trigger:

suicide and self harm.

My husband is I'll and needs caring for, meaning I am working, doing childcare, caring all whilst suffering severe depression. Just because I HAVE to cope doesn't mean I am ......yet if I was to give up fighting my daughter loses out and that makes me a gigantic failure. I am stuck in a mental and emotional straight jacket and its driving me crazy.......
Sorry to vent but I feel I am about to explode......
I have been emailing the Samaritans but the last few replyz have felt quite glib......
It feels like I am standing in circle with people one by one turning their back on me repeatedly saying...' Deal with it loser.....'get a grip......don't be so pathetic........'.
Do I have to something so incredibly drastic in order to be taken seriously??????????

Tolerance limit almost reached!!!!!!!

[puzzclar]

Realize that you are not alone!!!! There are many people that are in similar circumstances. You have the right to be taken seriously, and if people don't take them seriously then their not worth your time. Keep your head up, life is hard, but worth the time and energy.

[wa(o)rrior]

Hi Friend

I am able to understand your suffering. It's always been ridiculed that people try stupid things to draw attention. Why is that people can't understand our pain unless we attempt something drastic. you have come to this forum so that you can express your anguish and ventilate. we will all do our best to comfort you. first thing is to stay calm and accept that things are too much to handle. life's commitments has stressed you beyond your limits. so try starting to reduce your work load. spend time with nature.

[Pathetic1Am]

Originally Posted by wa(o)rrior

Hi Friend

I am able to understand your suffering. It's always been ridiculed that people try stupid things to draw attention. Why is that people can't understand our pain unless we attempt something drastic. you have come to this forum so that you can express your anguish and ventilate. we will all do our best to comfort you. first thing is to stay calm and accept that things are too much to handle. life's commitments has stressed you beyond your limits. so try starting to reduce your work load. spend time with nature.

Dear Wa(o)rrior, thank you very much for your support.
I completely agree with you, but dont understand why in the age we live in that this is still very much the case.
I very much appreciate the advice. I am very new to the forum setup but am finding it hard to get adequate support that I wanted to come and share my struggles and get advice from those also finding themselves in the same or worse position and maybe give back.
I am feeling very low, resigned, and apathetic today.... lots of very NEGATIVE THOUGHTS AND IDEAS ...... NOT IN A GOOD PLACE............... FEELING abandoned by one of my support networks at work.........out of place everywhere, a waste of space, pathetic, a loser.....you name it it is running through my head......just meh.......