[eggplantlife]

I am better now. I decided to post positive as I did post my sadness before.

I decided to let go of my identity of who I was and the career I had. It have been very freeing in that I am not haunted. It helped with my depression a lot. Also, my friend did healing work on me, but mostly, I worked very hard on myself.

It was hard letting me feel the feelings and maybe it is time that healed. Who knows.

So now I accept my low paying job and the manual work I do. Afterall grateful for a job. Sure, I had better job and career before but this is my life now. It is still a whole lot better than some people.

Now, I need to deal with relationship/ friends and family problem.

I am not completely happy but it is still much better that i don't have the deep depression.

I really disturbed a lot of people by reaching out to them. But I realized it was because I love myself and I wanted to live. Some were kind but sone were just cruel. For others out there, don't mind those cruel people. And sometimes, they don't mean to be cruel. But keep reaching out. Hotlines and a place I could email and this forum helped a lot. Keep reaching out. Keep finding places. If one place makes you feel horrible, keep trying. I mean at one time there was a person on the hotline who wasn't helpful or another that said that we needed to wrap up for other people. I mean I felt horrible when that happened. You keep trying. Go outside. Walk. Sit. Cry outside. But do no harm to anyone or yourself.

I have gone up and down.

Keep reaching out.

Much love and healing for you all.

[gayleggg]

Congratulations. I'm so glad you have made such progress. Keep up the good work.

[wa(o)rrior]

Hi Friend

first thing in comman is our moods today - 'Determined'. well i made peace with myself which is almost similar to what you described about yourself. be well!!!

[Bird Feeder]

Good for you! Persevering is HARD work and your doing it. Congrats and keep on keeping on.

[Fuzzybear]

Thank you so much for posting this! It's inspiring to me. I went through losing my ability to work in my career field about 20 years ago. It was very difficult. I'm on disability now, but before that I had some low-paying, part-time jobs.

I still find that I mourn the loss of my career at times. Actually, I find that most all losses and psychological issues that I've dealt with pop up again periodically in a mild sort of way.

I went through a period of very rough relations with my parents and siblings because of not understanding and unkind actions on their part. Those are mostly healed now. I keep more of a distance than I used to, but we have "enough" of a relationship. It took several years for us to reach that point, though.

When chronic health problems occur in our lives and when we lose our careers, we have to reinvent large parts of our lives. This is not easy at all. It sounds like you're on the path to doing that really well, though.

I admire your determination. Thank you again for this posting.

[Clara22]

Thank you for taking the time to share your current situation , it gives us joy and hope. Reading your post I learned that despite external difficulties, inherited conditions, etc, an important part of our healing depends on us.

[Angelique67]

Thank you for reminding me that I can reach out to hotlines. I'm always afraid to, but it's there if I want to call.

[eggplantlife]

Thank you gayleggg, wa(o)rrior, Bird Feeder, Fuzzybear and jo_thorne for your responses.

Jo_thorne - your reply help me to continue if I get a set back -- as your story sounds like mine.

Again, Thank you all for your support!
Have a great day!

[eggplantlife]

Thank you Clara22 and Angelique67!

[vital]

Originally Posted by wa(o)rrior

Hi Friend

first thing in comman is our moods today - 'Determined'. well i made peace with myself which is almost similar to what you described about yourself. be well!!!

[eggplantlife]

Originally Posted by vital

Fidn't watch the video but saw the title. Kind of strange, I mentioned this same words to a friend recently "don't worry, be happy". My best friend and her cousin that passed away like to say that.

[vital]

Originally Posted by eggplantlife

Fidn't watch the video but saw the title. Kind of strange, I mentioned this same words to a friend recently "don't worry, be happy". My best friend and her cousin that passed away like to say that.

Don't Worry, Be Happy - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

warri(o)rs signature line reminded me of that song.