Hi again, its been a few since I posted. I did update my post about going to my therapist, saying it was a "great" visit.

Anyway on a side note I've been loosing hope. When my depression first hit I focused on family, trying to get what little "support" they ended up giving to me. After recognizing that that wasn't good for me I decided to see a therapist. Fast forward to now, I've tried family,therapy,meds,friends, whats left?

I said my last session was good, which it was but alot of doubt has been coming to mind after reading some posts on here. Some inwhich are what I've been fearful of, the therapist really not caring. I find most docs in generally NOW DAYS could give 2 Sh*** about their pateints, trust me I know I've lost about every type of family member possible.

Enough with the rants about pdcos and therapists. I'm 17 full of life I've got tons of years to go...or do I? Stress has been said to age you, make you physically and mentally wore out.......I agree completely. Being 17 you get told don't worry about love, or anything it'll come intime. I need a romance to come and stay, I'm too young tho, but after my experiences I feel thats all I have to look forward to......and whats scary is I'm suicdal , what if I never make that romance?

I'm so sorry everyone for being angry in my posts.............................

[Leisel]

Hi, Moonkin, there is no need to appologize about your posts. I'm just 19 and I know how you feel, I didn't have romance a few years ago. Sometimes we tend to look at the things we don't have in a different light, we don't see it's flaws. I have been in a relationship for 3 years now and some things I have realized about dating a depression are that you can never fully love someone until you can love yourself, and nobody can make you love yourself. I do have someone who loves me and I am so appreciative of that, but battling depression might be easier on your own. I know we have had troubles because we are so young and we don't know ourselves. I hope that you continue your therapy, it can be a life saver! I hope that you find some help in my words

((((((Moonkin)))))))

I dont have answers but just wanted you to know we care!!

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((( Moonkin ))))))))))

[bipolar_bear]

Moonkin don't be sorry about your posts. I am sorry that you have gone through so much and are in so much pain. I hope that your doc is as good as you think. You are intelligent make up your own mind about your doc as there really are good ones out there. It sounds like you may have found one and hang in there with them. Maybe you can try to not let others circumstances cloud yours.

PLease confide in your doc they are there to help you through these times. And we are here for you too. Take care.

BB