[hpocus]

I'm floating through, doing what other people tell me to do, ignoring what I need to do because I've already spent all my energy, and forget completely about anything I want. I can't even imagine wanting something, other than feeling safe, which I doubt will ever happen. Being alone, it gets to you. And chitter chatter drives me nuts. I have so many super important things weighing me down, the idea of talking about, I don't know, cats or whatever, just makes me want to explode. Don't they see I have other things on my mind? Why burden me with more garbage? Why not, god forbid, pitch in a hand and help?

[TheOriginalMe]

I know only too well how it feels. I'm sorry if it doesn't help much. Being overwhelmed is exhausting and relentless.

[Fuzzybear]

[hpocus]

I keep getting told to add things, especially people. The problem is, I can start out meeting someone like a normal person, light and airy and fun. I've tried. It didn't work. I think it's time to start cutting things again. If I'm doing nothing, then I can try to keep my balance. I have a wafer thin allowance of dealing with other people's stuff. I just have no space left to deal. It makes me a horrible person though. I have a sort of friend, a step up from an acquaintance, who has a terrible anniversary today. Well, terrible to him, most people it wouldn't even register for. I tried to talk to him about it, tried to say the right thing, but everything I said was the wrong thing, and he gave up on me. I hope he found someone better to talk to.

[TheOriginalMe]

Originally Posted by hpocus

I keep getting told to add things, especially people.

Me too, my T, my pdoc and my nurse all tell me to do more, get out and meet people, fake it till I make it. I do that everyday, it hasn't worked for over four years, so why do they think it will work now?

You cared about your friend enough to make the effort for him and I'm sure that despite the frustration he will appreciate your intention.