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Having trouble going to sleep right now..and I need to get up early in only a few short hours... Right now I'm just thinking of how I feel like I've only been existing and not really "living". I'm not sure if I've ever at all been "living" and taking advantage of life.
I haven't been triggered or had a severe episode lately but I don't and haven't had a desire to live or appreciate my life like a normal person does either. I'm just pushing forward through these days with no real sense of purpose or value...I'm trying to give myself a chance with an actual last ditch effort to improve my wellbeing before I ever may decide to attempt again to send myself into the abyss...I don't know...I guess you could say I just feel like a empty shell as of late...each day is surviving instead of "living". Not sure how to really fully articulate or describe my thoughts right now...I don't know. I guess it's because it's 5am...time to try get a little bit of sleep before I have to wake up... Sent from my Nexus 4 using Tapatalk |
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I can sympathize. I feel that way a lot.
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Same here. Just know you are not alone. Things take time to change but they can change, if we let the change happen.
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I do that too. I've decided not to worry about the fact that I can't care for anything. I make goals every day and I force myself to reach them. It could be something as simple as going to the library to drop off books. In a way I'm going through the motions, but it's working like a safety net, keeping me from falling further.
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I feel like that most of my days also. I feel as if I'm just existing day to day. I wish I could get out of this mood
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I feel that way too. I am only existing and going through the motions; having people believe everything is ok. That's what they want to hear, that I'm ok and not in a "mood". I wish there was a way to get out of this funk.
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I have no magical answers for you......
The ONLY thing that comes to mind is doing charity work.?.?.? |
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Sometimes I think this feeling is actually just apart of life. Who told us we were supposed to be happy every day? Really? What if life sometimes consists of feeling "eh" about everything for awhile. Maybe that's not inherently a bad thing. Maybe just letting that be okay is what needs to happen.
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Just know that you're not alone.
Same thoughts run in my head every single day. |
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I understand how you feel. I feel that way at times. Just pushing forward. My body is there but the mind is not. I just try to push for my kids. I tell myself I am here for a purpose. We all are here for a purpose. Even if it is just to share your experience with someone to make them feel better. Stay strong. Hugs
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I feel the same way. I feel like I am just existing. I know how you feel.
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I used to feel that way a lot, but after a while I just decided to just roll with it and do whatever. People have been giving so many different answers to what what a life's "purpose" is suppose to be. After hearing most of those answers, I just gave up, chucked that list out the window and ended up being a little bit of a closeted hedonist. I'm honestly not sure why I'm still alive, so I just thought that as long as I'm here, I may as well experience stuff like tasting new recipes, listening to my music, and dancing my butt off when no one's around. I'm sure you'll find your way of coping too (you'll probably have an easier time than I did).
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We all need to get more connected, and not online. I think that is the key. Isolation destroys us. |
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You're right isolation can kill us. That's why we have to work extra hard to not.
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I have felt the same as all of you. Even now my life is a mess and I have thoughts that I cannot fix it. If I did find a permanent answer to my chronic depression its unlikely that exactly what worked for me will work for you. What I think I can suggest is that if what you are trying now is not working see if you can find it within you to try something else.
For myself lately I have been trying to be mindful that I have not tried everything. Obviously there are some things with zero evidence and others that I find ridiculous. I am not referring to anything without evidence here. I think it is important to not rule out an entire field which may be of help. For example, for me to state with certainty that exercise cannot help me would be to rule out that it will ever under any circumstance and using any combination would be of any help. The same applies with medications. |
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I can relate to what you are feeling.
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I'm amazed that I received so many responses and glad that many if not all of us can relate to each other. It gives me comfort to know that I am not the only one feeling like this on a every day basis.
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