[Enternal_Divine]

Okay... ive recently told my parents about my depression and how i feel its a problem and i need some help to fix it. I feel a little better, since ive taken the first steps to get outta this mess. BUT... the problem is that my friend has been talking with me for months and she is soo helpful, but she doesn't know that on top of depression... ive been known to cut every once and awhile... about a week ago i was really down... and had cut myself... and she saw the marks on my arm... so she panicked but i gave her a completely bull story that my cat had got me or something. just recently i got tired of lying since i shared everything with her and i told her the truth.

And up to this point she has been getting upset with me (prior to telling her about cutting) and is starting to get tired of me because sometimes i have been very uncooperative and i have delayed telling my parents for months. So, she is completely upset with me, mostly b/c i lied to her... and she hasn't talked to me in a little awhile. i have apologized to her... but i no that isn't enough... and this has been really hard on me because she is basically the only person i ever share anything with... and now with her not talking to me... ive been completely alone... and im worse than ever... and ive tried not to cut since then... and ive been successful... im just really a complete emotional wreck and i have no idea what to do... HELP!

[rockergirl_ah]

I'm sorry. I hope your friend comes around. If she's been as supportive as you say, then she probably will. Just remember if she doesn't, then that is her loss. It does not make a worthless person or anything. I know it hurts like hell right now, but it will get better.

i hope you're feeling better tonight........please keep us updated..........xoxoxo pat

[Wants2Fly]

Hello Divine -- I'm sorry that you feel that your friend has turned away from you. I can empathize with how this can make you feel even worse and have a negative effect on your depression and self-esteem.

When we are so down, it can be especially challenging to put ourselves in the other person's position. Try to keep in mind that your friend, like you, is young. She may be very scared about what you revealed and feel totally overwhelmed and clueless about how to cope with it.

I know that doesn't help you feel less alone and deserted, but perhaps it won't feel so much like she is "tired" of you and has made a negative judgment about you.

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[jacq10]

First of all, can i just say CONGRATS on telling your parents. That is such a huge deal and i know how hard it can be to reach out to people (especially them) and tell them how you've been feeling. To me that shows that you are such a strong person who is willing to take action and try and help themselves get through how you are feeling.

As for your friend ... well it sounds to me like she is probably just overwhelemd/scared because she cares about you and doesn't want to see anything bad happen to you. If she's never really dealt with depression herself, it could make it difficult for her to really understand why you are dealing with things in the way you are, or why you act certain ways sometimes. Its no bodies fault, its just harder for her to try and help you i guess. Im sorry to hear that it is making a strain on your relationship, but if she is truly the good friend that she is, she will come back. Just give her a little time and space to herself, as she probably just needs it to regroup and figure things out for herself.

Hang in there,
Jacq

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[Perna]

Rather than just apologizing, have you told/shown your friend how helpful she's been? Are there any suggestions she's made that might be a good idea that you might be able to do now (like the finally telling your parents) that you weren't able to do before?

What did your parents do with the telling? You probably should see a therapist it sounds like? Can you ask your parents to see/talk to someone and see if they can help with ideas how to show your friend you appreciate her and miss her and would like her to be friends again.

[Christina86]

I agree with all that's been said here.

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