[HerOdyssey]

So my Psychiatrist has been out of commission with her new baby for a few weeks now, and frankly, I'm starting to feel my ability to cope slowly winnowing away. I have been really struggling with the sleep thing, and have had to go through fairly severe inner-debates just to peel myself out of bed each morning. I'm tired all the time.

I miss my therapy. So much so, I'm actually considering medication until she comes back.

I am also in angry with myself mode. I get mad that I can't grasp the whole normalcy thing. I see my Husband hopping out of bed at 4AM every day, bright eyed and bushy tailed, and it induces my homocidal tendencies (kidding). I just envy anyone who can just get up and do things just like breathing, without having to go through a personal battle to motivate themselves to do anything.

My weight is out of control; and food is like an addiction. I think about it constantly.

I can't get pregnant; and my period started today, and it just makes me want to curl up and weep under my desk.

Everything is so freakin' disheartening! Is this all there is? Nothing goes right, there's no joy in anything, nothing to look forward to...

Augh.... I want therapy back. Can someone boot me in the butt please!!! I'm so afraid I'm going to dip down into 'that place' again.

Im so sorry things in your life are disappointing and not the way they were supposed to go. I hope you have some friends to support you during this time. You have a great personality and some neat intrerests (writing and art). There may be some organizations for those interests to get your mind off things until your therapist is back. Best wishes.

[Direction]

Is your Psychiatrist also your therapist?

I got a little confused...

[mlpHolmes]

Dear Her Odyssey,
Thank you for helping me earlier today!
It is mighty difficult "going solo" when you've had a net.But you are getting up every time! Good for You! Would you & your T consider phone therapy? Would you be comfortable with a T highly recommended by your usual T?
You're right food can be an addiction. I am so sorry you are having a tough time in all the areas you mention - the good news, it will pass.
PM anytime, I would love to hear how you are doing.

[HerOdyssey]

Sorry about the slow reply; I'm still in the five posts a day mode (which is useful but annoying)

@direction
The answer is YES, however she's not an MD, she's a Psychologist, my mistake. I did have a Psychiatrist before her though. Didn't 'mesh' with him too well. I just prefer talk therapy where I can sit there and wallow in self pity, and being interrupted in mid blubber to be presented a circle-graph of my emotional layers really wasn't my cup of tea.

@mlp
I chose to go without my T/P and without a referral. I'm kind of high maintenance and picky, and it took me a long time to find someone I can feel really comfortable with. She told me if I get super low to call her; but I'm not that bad yet that I feel I should interrupt her peaceful new baby time to whine on the phone.