Wow, what a time I've been having as of late.

Its almost like a dream. To those who don't know my therapist is leaving in July, and their is NO WAY I can see him where he is going, its to far away! Not only has my family deserted me, but also my therapist, I mean he says he;s leaving for a "offer he can't refuse" I want to laugh and cry, its so mixed for me......he said "you gotta grab the bull by the horns" after I told him I was suicidal.....then I thought "how can I, your leaving everything I've worked for is leaving"......, my confidents, you, my friends,family.

My friends ignore I have a problem, despite the fact its natural for them to do that, its hard! My family never asks how I'm doing even recently I told them to ask, to care, to support.....

So who do I work for? Me..thats who! I am tired of caring about all thats in this world, when I'm not cared about by those I need to care for me! I'm not gonna play around anymore.....I'm gonna crawl in this hole I've created and dig my way out.....no matter how long it takes........

[selfy]

jeez doesnt sound fun...
u can cope, i bet u can. family and friends may not seem to care, but we all do, and we will support u till the end if T is going away.... get another 1 ! it may be hard getting a new T but it will take off some of the pressure of trying to "go it alone" as it were.
take care
self

[Camacho89]

Perhaps you need to look at this situation in a different light...

Perhaps you were becoming too reliant on your therapist and this is exactly what you needed to focus on yourself and dig yourself out of your hole. I hate to say it, but when the day is done and the lights are off, regardless of who's next to you or coming home to you or awaiting your phone call, YOU are the only one who needs to wake up the next morning and get out of bed.

The work you did with this therapist did not go to waste, perhaps you went as far as you could possibly go with this guy and it's time to discover someone new. Like any other relationship we develop, when it boils down to it, the other person is a person too. They have wants, needs and know that when push comes to shove and their backs are up against the wall, they and they alone are the only ones who NEED to look out for themselves. Perhaps this is a something you need to realize first and foremost.

You need to work on You. It's no one else's reponsibility to take care of You but You.

Good luck!!!

[Wants2Fly]

Moonkin, in 2004 I was in a place that felt a lot like what you describe. Not only was I emotionally isolated, I was house-sitting in a town where I had no acquaintances.

I started using some of the activities in Dr. Clay's free book about Self-Help available online. I had to go to the library and print out sections to read, because I didn't have an online connection where I was staying.

Other books that people praise are Feeling Good and The Feeling Good Handbook.

But Dr. Clay's book is what helped me when I decided I was going to crawl out of the hole no matter what it took. I would try one thing, and when I started slipping back, I'd try another, just like he suggests in the book.

Best wishes with this. Please keep us posted. There are some people who care, Moonkin, even if we are not a physical presence in your life but cyber presences.

I understand that sometime even the best positive words doesn't come through to us but one day they will so please keep hope. Keep communicating here. Keep in touch with us. We do care.

Thinking of you!
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