[oddworld]

I have to go back to my therapist ... its been a while and I feel like a failure but I'm also really tired of everyone saying how strong and confident I am, I am afraid and I feel weak and I just wish someone would see that. I feel like I really need someone to just really accept me for who and where I am right now ... I am not a failure I know that, I'm just really struggling right now but I almost have another day under my belt, and I know I have a little bit of hope growing again.
Julie

[Dern]

Hello, Julie. May the maintenance prove beneficial.

[TheLifeFantastic]

We are always constantly growing and learning new things in our lives. You can say that it is a failure that I have to go back to the therapist, but I would like to think of it not as a failure. I would like to see it as your realization that things are not as they should be. That you decided that how everything is right now is not how it should be.

I think it is a strong person who can see that they do need help. That they do not deny the fact they may be in a time of need. Julie you are only doing the right thing! Do not let it make you feel less of a person! Because you are only doing what is right!

[Fizzyo]

It's not possible to be brave unless you feel fear. Ergo you are courageous as well as scared and everything else you feel. I hope you find the kind of support and encouragement you need.

[oddworld]

Thanks for the supportive messages, funny having a website that gives more support than the people around you. I'm getting stronger every day, and my therapist is really good, although she does tend to push me past my meltdowns pretty quickly and sometimes I think its not quite that simple, but I felt alot better after seeing her and she gave me some CD's on mindfulness which I'm finding quite good. Today is a better day than yesterday ....

[francisR]

hi Julie

You are not a failure. Returning to the therapist is not a sign of failure but of the desire to improve and stabilize your help even more. Sometimes when we feel depressed. we feel weak, but in fact we are strong because we keep going. despite the difficulties, and you should give yourself the credit for doing that.

I know that in New Zealand. there is GROW the mental health recovery group that has enabled so many people to transform their lives and recover. You might like to consider joining that. I belong to it here in Northern Ireland and it does a fantastic job for sufferers. I hope and pray everything gets much better for you soon. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis