I know I need more help

I'm hanging on , doing better . don't have any thoughts of suicide . but I'm still having trouble getting out of bed and living . I've seem to have lost my vest for life and I don't know how to get it back. I'm in therapy and I'm started to get to close and needy and that scares me .I'm married have friends but choice to isolate to much ,but when I plan something I do get up and do activity ;but go back up stairs . I just want to have no more pain or at least a handle on it all .I so use to enjoy life. I hide it pretty well I think now but want to start living again

Wanting to start living again is a good first step. Take it slowly. Recovery doesn't happen in a day. Do what you are capable of doing every day, and don't feel guilty if there are things you can't get to. You're fighting a hard battle, and you need the extra time. It's ok to take things slowly when they're hard. I hope that helps.

Hi BocaBabe,

I found that it really helps to understand exactly why you feel the way you do - tired and afraid, zero motivation, too stressed to interact with people. See if this makes sense:

http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB...0164151576.pdf

Here is also what I think is the best overall plan:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

- vital

hi BocaBabe

Depression does take away a lot of our enthusiasm for life. But as has been said wanting to live again is a great place to start. Perhaps making a plan for doing just that would be best. Planning activities for the day so that the day would be full of them and making yourself actually do them would be the best way to go. As you have said you have the strength to make yourself do things and using it for this purpose would move things forward for you. You will still get some juice out of the things you used to do, and that should increase as you continue with the activities. Having a real purpose in life that is consuming such as a charitable cause, or reconnecting with something that fired you up in earlier times will give meaning and purpose to life for you. I hope and pray all of this will improve for you soon. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis

Hi
Thanks for the feedback and support
I've been out of the hospital for a year now
And then loss my mother and have so much
Rage and anger I think I scared my therapist
Because she thought I would hit her anyway
I am doing better with suicidal thoughts
Now I just have to get up and out more

[QUOTE=vital;4691821]Hi BocaBabe,

I found that it really helps to understand exactly why you feel the way you do - tired and afraid, zero motivation, too stressed to interact with people. See
Hi
Thank you for your very thoughtful ideas
I will read your post and try the snap

Also I will check out by Vit D
And try and start walking
God bless