[CrazyLo]

I've never visited this part of the forum before because I was so manic when I joined this website.

I am now horribly depressed. My hefty, recent weight gain is making it worse. I can't shower, shave, or take care of myself. I wear my pajamas all day. I don't want to see my friends or family. I can't get myself to do anything once enjoyable, like drawing, writing, crocheting, video games...I need to clean my room and bathroom but I don't care enough to do so. I am taking a lot of naps. I'm happy in my sleep because I have the ability of lucid dreaming. It is my happy escape from my miserable life.

Just wanted to complain.

Lo, you are going to pull through this. Try to do at least one thing that makes you smile today. Please. Find enjoyment in one little thing.

[CrazyLo]

Thank you for your support.

I got out my crochet hooks and yarn early this morning. But it's just sitting there, untouched in the living room. I don't know how to find the motivation to get started. I guess I just need to force myself.

[francisR]

hi CrazyLo

I am sorry that you are feeling bad. Perhaps the mood stabilizer needs strengthening. Some people do have two. mood stabilizers and you could talk to the doctor about that. Try to keep your mind busy doing things, especially enjoyable ones that will take the focus away from depression. Setting small easily achievable goals will give you the feeling that things are coming under control and build confidence. I hope and pray you feel much better soon. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis

[TheOriginalMe]

I'm sorry that you are feeling bad. I feel a bit of a fraud still posting on the depression board because I am so up right now, but it is where I started out on PC and I know I have friends here. I guess my point is that things will change but until then you have a safe place to vent.

[CrazyLo]

Thanks guys. I forced myself to crochet today. I was able to do it for quite awhile. I keep alternating between crocheting and coming on here...I was just trying not to sleep because I feel more depressed when I sleep a lot.

[spring2014]

hi lo,
it's hard to get motivated when you're feeling depressed . I too crochet but I haven't been able to work on it cuz im concentrating on my flute for church cuz I'm in a church choir . I had to stop going to school online cuz im concentrating on the flute right now.don't despair . things will get better as time goes by .









Diagnosis: Anxiety and depression
meds: Cymbalta 90mgs at night
Vistrail 2 25 mgs daily for anxiety prn
50 mgs at night for insomnia

[Nammu]

you're not alone...that pretty much described my life right now...except for the crocheting, never learned how to do that. I used to do embroidery tho.

[Angelique67]

I'm in the same boat, and I have been in it over two years now thanks to all I've been through. It will pass though and get better.

[CrazyLo]

I hope it will pass. Well, I know it will pass...because I start getting hypomanic in the Spring. Hmm, looks like it's gonna be a long winter of misery! (I hope not).

Sidestepper- you should learn how to crochet or knit. It's fun and distracting!

[Nammu]

I once tried to crochet...I made a huge really long chain, but I couldn't turn around and connect them.

[CrazyLo]

Oh, it's easy! But there are great resources online if you want to learn.