[lima01]

Been on amytripline 35mg at night and 1mg clonazepam to get some sleep .
Trying to not think of the negative things or the huge problems I have to face. I will have to face them in the near future .
Been walking some but it wears me down fast . My head has cleared some, the elephant on my head is less . I'm not out of the woods for sure ,I very physically weak from this .Trying to do each day . I am not as prone to suicide thoughts but its still there. I read the success stories about coming out of depression , there are not enough of them for my taste . Been in this for months now . Can't take ssri's-- resisting taking remeron for fear of side effects like the severe ones I had on ssri's.
Please let me get better for the people that depend on me . I'm 69 so its not for me but for all those I help support . My past bad decisions are haunting me. I get some peace in sleep now .
I take no pleasure from those I read about that have it worse than me . May make me feel worse . Wishing everyone wellness. I am told to try to stick to positive stuff.

[gayleggg]

I'm sorry things have been so rough on you. I hope the new meds help.

I know what you mean by not wanting to let people down. I'm afraid I do though.

Wishing you better times in the near future.

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[vital]

Originally Posted by lima01

Been on amytripline 35mg at night and 1mg clonazepam to get some sleep .
Trying to not think of the negative things or the huge problems I have to face. I will have to face them in the near future .
Been walking some but it wears me down fast . My head has cleared some, the elephant on my head is less . I'm not out of the woods for sure ,I very physically weak from this .Trying to do each day . I am not as prone to suicide thoughts but its still there. I read the success stories about coming out of depression , there are not enough of them for my taste . Been in this for months now . Can't take ssri's-- resisting taking remeron for fear of side effects like the severe ones I had on ssri's.
Please let me get better for the people that depend on me . I'm 69 so its not for me but for all those I help support . My past bad decisions are haunting me. I get some peace in sleep now .
I take no pleasure from those I read about that have it worse than me . May make me feel worse . Wishing everyone wellness. I am told to try to stick to positive stuff.

Thanks for the message lima01. I LOVE walking too.

- vital

[Fizzyo]

Hi Lima01,

I'm so glad you're getting some sleep now. It really helps if we can get a good night's sleep.
I really hope your more unhelpful thoughts continue to improve and go away soon.
I have heard that a lot of people recover from depression over six months or a year, even with little treatment. You could be one of them, especially as you start to tackle some of the things weighing you down, gently and gradually.

Remember that the people who come here over a long period of time won't be representative of the 'recovered' group as, once better, people often move on to other things.

Best regards and good luck as you move forward. Keep hoping.