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Old Oct 08, 2015, 10:22 PM
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What should I do if I truly do suck as bad as I fear I do? I'm pretty sure I am just a hopelessly inept piece of s**t. I am so awful I don't even know how to start fixing myself , I wish I could just hide away forever.
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Old Oct 09, 2015, 12:40 PM
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In a state of deep depression and pervasive anxiety you cannot avoid self-judgment, but - in my opinion - it does you no good to spend psychic resources heeding the judgments.

Is there any time of day, of week, of month when these feelings subside?

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I agree with Rohag. Along with depression comes low self-esteem. You are worthy as a human being. Have you sought professional help? There is help for depression and self-esteem issues. Being here on PC can help let you know that you are not alone and that there are others here to help boost you up when you are feeling down. I'm glad you are here and felt you could share with us. Just know that you are worth as much as anyone else but we are all human and have doubts at times. May you be lifted up.
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What should I do if I truly do suck as bad as I fear I do? I'm pretty sure I am just a hopelessly inept piece of s**t. I am so awful I don't even know how to start fixing myself , I wish I could just hide away forever.
Hello annoyedgrunt84: Well... speaking as someone who does demonstrably suck as badly as they think they do (I'll forego the gory details)... I would just like to suggest that it's okay to be a hopeless piece of s**t. Hey... somebody's got to do it! So my thought is just be who you are... work on accepting yourself just as you are... whoever you are... what ever that is...

I am a pathetic excuse for a student of the Buddhist nun Pema Chödrön. She teaches an ancient Buddhist practice called Lojong. It translates as: Mind Training. Anyway, as a part of her teachings, Ani Pema has written that those things about ourselves we most despise are our treasure. We can use them to develop compassion for ourselves &, as a natural outgrowth, for others too.

Beyond that, I would just like to suggest that success develops from success. So, find some little things you can do that you know you can succeed at. Do those. Then find a few more things that are just a wee bit more challenging. Do those & keep building from there. Sooner or later, you'll wake up one morning & realize that you've actually become a pretty good person after all!

My best wishes to you, annoyedgrunt84.
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What should I do if I truly do suck as bad as I fear I do? I'm pretty sure I am just a hopelessly inept piece of s**t. I am so awful I don't even know how to start fixing myself , I wish I could just hide away forever.
Hi annoyedgrunt84,

This is the sneaky, sneaky trick of depression. Please stop for a second an consider this.

You are thinking

I suck.

I am hopeless.

I am an inept piece of s**t.

I suck.

I am hopeless.

....etc...Interspersed with the actual reasons why you think you suck, etc.

These thoughts all have high emotional content. Because they have high emotional content, they keep coming up in your mind again and again and again. They are also truly very important in your life. Are you really an inept piece of s**t? Are your perceptions correct? Are you hopeless? What questions could be more important? What is more important than finding out the answers to these questions?

HERE IS THE TRICK: These questions *seem* important, but they also hide the *most* important thing to realize. Compared to that, it does not matter what those thoughts are or what the answers to your questions are or whether your thoughts are perceptive or whether your feelings are justified. The essential problem is the *way* these thoughts and feelings are entering your mind. Fixing that, if you can, is the absolutely most important thing and is likely to also fix everything else over time:

http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB...0164151576.pdf

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