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Jan 16, 2016, 10:39 PM
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Hi,
I've been on these forums before under the name Music Rules Me, but I can't seem to get onto the account. So I've been depressed since I was at least 11 (I'm now 22). For the last apprx. year I've been suicidal, but haven't done anything because I know it would hurt people. Recently, I've been the same, yet I've been involved slightly with one of my best friends. While I've been terrified that I'll drag him down with my depression, I've also been hoping for some sort of relationship, as I thought that maybe he would be able to give me the help that I need, and be the one who understands me and accepts my scars, etc. I asked him tonight what was happening with us, and he said that he was just having fun. Now I feel that the one ray of hope has been crushed, and the one person who I felt that maybe I could learn to rely on has disappeared. I don't know what to do. As I said, I've felt suicidal for a while, and although I know I wont do anything, those feelings are very much present. How am I meant to feel when all of my slight hopes and the only bit of future I could imagine have gone? I feel played, and as someone rather broken anyway, it's too much to handle. What am I meant to do? |
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Jan 17, 2016, 11:53 AM
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You didn't really give enough detail for me to see the whole picture. My gut tells me he didn't reject you, just that he avoided the commitment question by keeping it casual.
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Jan 17, 2016, 11:56 AM
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Depression amplifies our negative emotions, including doubt. "Just having fun" doesn't equate to rejection. It just says he is at a point where he is enjoying spending time with you and wants to keep it casual. Don't give up-- his feelings may change.
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Dx Bipolar II 2014 -- currently in remission Stay calm, be kind, have hope, love lots, and be well. "Listen to the deep voice of your soul. Do not be distracted by the voice of your mind." -- Caitlin Matthews[/B][/COLOR][/SIZE] |
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Jan 18, 2016, 02:27 PM
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Oh! Hello, Music Rules Me! I'm glad to "see" you even if the circumstances are difficult.
 Relationships are not my territory, but I do know that the urge for relationship is natural and powerful. Additionally, depression can interfere in various ways with one's ability to modulate the emotions involving the urge for relationship. If possible, collect more data and more opinions. Wishing you all the best!
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Jan 18, 2016, 02:55 PM
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that is ****** af, im so sorry.. if you want more and feel he doesnt because of that then id say back off for now and if he feels the same then he will come back to you. but don't let yourself get used either because you deserve way more than that even if you dont see your self worth..
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