[Sunset-L]

I just have to face the fact that I'm a failure in life.. I'm now 48 years old and still haven't accomplished anything in life, never have, never will.. I'm going to destroyed all of my past belongings, my yearbooks, photos, anything that's from the past that caused me a lot of pain, misery and years of mistreatment which most of my life has been.. All I want to do now is look foward to be dead until I'm lucky that I'll develop a deadly illness, be killed or I have enough courage to end my life! In the meantime I'm very bitter hostile and cold hearted because I totally hate my life and this world is a rotten place to be in which nobody gives a F!!!

[Fuzzybear]

[i dont matter]

Born loser..... oh, I thought your post was about me.

:P

[nowhere46]

Well, I don't know if you have failed at anything or have accomplished anything. I do know what it feels like to hate yourself and wish your life could be erased. I don't have anything to take away the mistreatment or pain you've experienced. But I do care that another person feels completely miserable and hopeless and angry. I feel that way myself. When every single thing sucks and the pain wont stop, it doesn't take courage to end your life, it takes courage to try to hold on and endure it. That's the truth. Best regards to you for what they are worth.

[cryingontheinside]

I feel like a worthless loser so your not alone feeling that way . pm me anytime if you want to talk .

Hugs

Sophie

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Originally Posted by Sunset-L

I just have to face the fact that I'm a failure in life.. I'm now 48 years old and still haven't accomplished anything in life, never have, never will.. I'm going to destroyed all of my past belongings, my yearbooks, photos, anything that's from the past that caused me a lot of pain, misery and years of mistreatment which most of my life has been.. All I want to do now is look foward to be dead until I'm lucky that I'll develop a deadly illness, be killed or I have enough courage to end my life! In the meantime I'm very bitter hostile and cold hearted because I totally hate my life and this world is a rotten place to be in which nobody gives a F!!!

Oh I get what you're saying. Every single word of it. It's not a pretty place to be.

I'm 43, and have nothing to show for it...

I have looked myself on the mirror many times and told myself I'm nothing but a failure, a loser. It hurts deep into the soul.

Admiting it to myself does cut deeper into the heart than hearing it from someone else, that's all I can say.

But hey, maybe we'll all hit the jackpot one of these days. Who knows.

You know your life sucks when the lottery is your only hope. Well, it's my only hope at the moment.

[JohnCrow]

I am 49, less than 2 weeks from 50 and I have nothing to show

No love, no career, no home (apartment, not quite homeless yet), no works of art (unless you count 25mm miniatures)

I always feel like I do everything right and still fail

Believe me, you are not alone in feeling this way

Depression takes not only from us, but from society. I am a smart guy (I am not bragging here, I am well above average), who knows what I could have done without this sapping my will and stealing my focus?

There are people here who have children, whom they fear will see them as less for having mental illness so, to avoid embarrassing their children, they suffer in silence

There are some here that, despite success in career, finance, lost all sense of direction and stepped off the track. They too are embarrassed by their own seeming failure to just 'snap out of it'. So they suffer in silence.

Every day I get angry and resolve to do something and every night I die, melt into my sheets and reborn the next day having neither accomplished or start something worthwhile the day before

I grew up in a time and place that saw, and still sees, mental illness as a personal failing. You aren't sick, you're lazy; you aren't suffering, you're just weak

And we are conditioned to not be whiny, to not bother people with our condition. So, we suffer in silence

The world is really a beautiful place. There are such wonders, good people, amazing achievements. I have, briefly from time to time, felt it. And I want it back, I deserve it, I ... and my anger is spent. I can already feel the demons crawling back into place

[yktlplk]

Maybe life isn't about leaving a big mark. Maybe it's about not leaving a bad one?

[Sunset-L]

Originally Posted by BuildABridge

Maybe we'll all hit the jackpot one of these days. Who knows.

You know your life sucks when the lottery is your only hope.

Sure, and maybe someday I'll be president of the united states! OH GIVE ME A FCKING BREAK!! That's the chances I have of getting married and having children or a even just having a romantic relationship, which is totally zip!! I'll have a better chance being in my grave!!!

[oddworld]

Its crap that you have to go through this and I hope at least there is something good about today for you. I have struggled to find anything bright or good about this life for so long but I can now take something good from every day and its a start for me, which I guess is hope but not for what I thought I needed from someone or something else, its what I needed from me.