[Afish]

I've dealt with depression for a long time now, but I've recently begun to take a spiral. One of my best friends passed away and I moved away from home. The situations themselves where what I thought caused the sudden relapse but I'm not sure. To most people I seem to be very happy and on top of the world, but the truth is the opposite. This past week I haven't even been able to leave my house. I can't sleep when I try, but still spends hours a day in bed. I've attempted suicide before, although I'm not currently at that level. I want to get help but I can barely afford rent. Plus I'm dealing with physical medical issues that drain the rest of my funds. I don't really have any friends right now and the only people I can feel "close" to are usually in a book or on a TV screen. I feel so incredibly alone, but when people try to get close I instinctively push them away. As much as I try to hide it, I'm not okay. And I don't know what to do.

[vital]

Originally Posted by Afish

...And I don't know what to do.

Hi Afish,

You might try what worked for, for instance Freewilled

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4715237-post156.html

see these notes

http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB/BA.pdf

I don't know what your physical medical issues are, but you might want to check if you have an issue that's going to directly affect you mental state. See

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

- vital

[Alone & confused]

Originally Posted by Afish

I've dealt with depression for a long time now, but I've recently begun to take a spiral. One of my best friends passed away and I moved away from home. The situations themselves where what I thought caused the sudden relapse but I'm not sure. To most people I seem to be very happy and on top of the world, but the truth is the opposite. This past week I haven't even been able to leave my house. I can't sleep when I try, but still spends hours a day in bed. I've attempted suicide before, although I'm not currently at that level. I want to get help but I can barely afford rent. Plus I'm dealing with physical medical issues that drain the rest of my funds. I don't really have any friends right now and the only people I can feel "close" to are usually in a book or on a TV screen. I feel so incredibly alone, but when people try to get close I instinctively push them away. As much as I try to hide it, I'm not okay. And I don't know what to do.

Welcome to PC. Hopefully some of our members can help you find some answers to your problems, but until then just know that you're not alone. There is a wealth of information and support for you here. We have lots of helpful people who all work to help each other.

I can so relate.

[Tauren]

Try putting your location in here and see if it can find you any free or low-cost counseling:
OpenCounseling.com

[Fuzzybear]

[waterknob1234]

Hi Afish. Welcome to pc. Depression is a very lonely illness and people in the regular world just have trouble understanding it. Know that you are not alone. We are here, and we understand how you feel.