The short answer is no one.....ya'know for years I've spilled my story,my expeirences, my life to strangers hoping for a reply, a moment of hope, and in those years I never got any of that. Lately I've realized just how bad I've become. I never had much of a life at home , my parents seemed so close yet distant, its a odd feeling its as if they where there yet not there...

I should be happy, or should i? In order for someone to love you you must love yourself? Is that true? Huhmm all these questions are already answered maybe thats why it seems so distant that I'll ever see the light like my last post stated.

What about mental wards? Or am i depressed? These 2 questions often trrick me, I see adds on this site alot saying "Could your depression be something more"? Then I click on it and take the bipolar quiz, over and over, wondering what these words mean, wondering what they can do for me.......Mental wards.....am I crazy? Or is the world?

Its hard to say, and most of all its hard to consider any possibilty , because if I am crazy then my mind isn't right therefor nothing I think has relavance. If the worlds crazy on the other hand , I'm really lonely....because 8 billion.....>Me.

I cry an awful lot anymore, my dad asks me how I'll ever make in the work force.......somehow I doubt i'll make it that far.....so if you have ever worked, whether or not your employed or not pay yourself on the back....Its a hard thing, something I hope to do.

Confidents is a huge factor...a factor that stumbles us all. Its determines if we wake up,get a job, take a shower, eat, and things we dont usually recognize with a mental disorder.

So whats the world offering me? Is it even real? I see so many ppl daily just passing by my house, i wonder what they're thinking? I wonder if I'll ever think what they're thinking......

Yesterday I saw my pdoc, and noticed passing cars, the driver smiling, I smiled too.....which one was real? I'm not sure if either where....but I do know mine was shallow, modest, but also in the now.

I've been rambling for sometime. now......not sure if I shoudld post this.......not sure if there result would differ or not.....

Bye

[Direction]

Actually I think the short answer is you...don't you think?

I've been in mental health facilities twice...very helpful...I think it might be something to really consider...it would be a step you can take to get some of this under control...

[Fuzzybear]

You..... but we can help.......

"not sure if the result would differ or not"......

well idk, sorry not so great on answers today

(((((((((((( Moonkin ))))))))))))))

[Wants2Fly]

((((((((((((((((Moonkin))))))))))))))))))))))))

The others right -- the solution is an inside job. People can support you, but the transformation is yours and yours alone.

[tranquility]

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I should be happy, or should i? In order for someone to love you you must love yourself? Is that true? Huhmm all these questions are already answered maybe thats why it seems so distant that I'll ever see the light like my last post stated.

<font color="blue"> Yes you do need to learn to like yourself first and then love yourself. I'm thinking I'm close to the liking part but it's reallllly hard!!!! </font>

Confidents is a huge factor...a factor that stumbles us all. Its determines if we wake up,get a job, take a shower, eat, and things we dont usually recognize with a mental disorder.
<font color="blue"> You are absolutely right! </font>

Yesterday I saw my pdoc, and noticed passing cars, the driver smiling, I smiled too.....which one was real? I'm not sure if either where....but I do know mine was shallow, modest, but also in the now.

<font color="blue"> I question that all the time - how can I be happy one second and so sad the next. We are both of those people and I think when we get better at recognizing triggers and how to deal with depression, those two sides will blend together. </font>

I've been rambling for sometime. now......not sure if I shoudld post this.......not sure if there result would differ or not.....

<font color="blue"> glad you posted! It's many of my own thoughts. You are a bright and intelligient person </font>

Tranquility


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noone else may be able to dig u out of that whole at least b4 u make that first move
but u know im in my hole some distance away from u
maybe we could dig a tunnel and meet in the middle
at least u wont feel so alone down there..
what u think?