[RebbieDoll]

i am SO sick of being worried all the time
im so sick of being depressed all the time
im so sick of not knowing %#@&#!
im so sick of dialing numbers over and over just to reach the recording every time
im so sick of being single
im so sick of people telling me im pretty
im so sick of people telling me "YES, we're right!!!" [not in general, this is a specific thing]
im so sick of this drama %#@&#!
im so sick of my life revolving around the stupidity of a guy "called" jessica
im so sick of not being able to say anything
im so sick of not being able to do anything
im so sick of being ignored
im so sick of not knowing whether i should expect today to be a good day, or a ****** one filled with drama and anxiety
im so sick of school
im so sick of my inability to just SAY what the %#@&#! im thinking
im so sick of obligations
im so sick of guilt
im so sick of people using me
im so sick of myself
im so sick of life.

[adele96]

well you just said how i'm feeling most of the time. i too am completely sick of other people's %#@&#! and how it always has to affect my life. i'm %#@&#! 32 and single, never had a proper relationship and i can't find a decent man that i actually find interesting and the one i have now is so screwed up that he's going to push me away. i've never dated anyone longer than two months. why can't i find an interesting man who wants me. i am really beginning to hate men. oops, sorry, your rant triggered my rant, lol. but here i go again....
everyperson i meet who i expect to be a great friend ends up being a flake and a coward.
my life has to constantly revolve around everyone else and i let this happen willingly because i want friends and then i'm accused of being selfish. in what way exactly!? they can never say.
i'm sick of being weak.
i'm sick of needing something that is so obviously unattainable.
i'm sick of my life being an empty piece of %#@&#! and i'm sick of having nothing to live for and no one to share it with.
and i'm just sick of it all....and then some.

[Direction]

It sounds like you have a good handle on what your tired of?

I don't think I've seen any of your posts, so I really don't know your background. T? pdoc? med's?

I've personally asked my T to help me develop a structure as I'm having trouble with that. Meet him tomorrow after two weeks and haven't completed my task...guess its that time...

SongsInMyHeart and adele96--

I am listening and I hear your pain and your struggle. Please know that there are many here that care and are hearing you. I so understand and send out wishes that you will feel better. I would send out a hug ((((())))))) if that is okay. Do not know that what I have to give is much right now but my thoughts are with you both. I can understand.

purplesecrets

[SpringStar]

Yep.....Life's a ***** sometimes and then it gets better.

When you get sick of the crap that can bombar our lives, its good to step back and spend time for yourself.

Recharge and get stuck back into and sort the stuff out, also some stuff isn't as bad as it seems and i know when I'm pissed off......I can over react to stuff...but hay I have a right to...right.....!!!

What I'm trying to say is channel your energies on you and the good stuff in your life.

Also find a punching bag to get rid of your frustrations.

Good Luck
SpringStar