[Linus VanPelt]

A couple of weeks ago, I posted a thread asking what to do when you have no motivation to do anything. In talking with my therapist, I found it's deeper than that. I have no desires at all for anything. Things that used to excite me don't even get a response from me anymore. Even going to a concert holds no interest. I've gotten very good at putting on masks. I guess all of us do. It's easier to smile and pretend you're happy than to have to explain what's going on. But, now, I seem to be wearing them all the time. Especially for my wife who's trying to make me happier. She gets me concert tickets to my favorite bands and I have to fake excitement. This loss of desire has now saturated every aspect of my life. Reading, movies, music, talking to friends and family, spending time outside. Even sex holds no meaning or interest. I have three emotions; depression, anger, and blah. I have no answers and, sadly, my response to this is indifference. All I want to day all day everyday is lay in bed and stare at the ceiling. Not only have I dug this rut I'm in but I've made it my home. Due to physical and psychological conditions, I'm unable to work (fortunately, I guess, I'm on SSD) so I have nowhere to go. This summer, my truck broke down and I can't afford to fix it or get a new one, so I have no way to go anywhere. So, I have all the time in the world to sleep almost 24/7. One more factor to this is I'm also, among other psychological ailments socio-agoraphobic so taking public transportation is out. I need to find my way out of this scary world I've designed for myself but I seem to have forgotten my way home.

[sotiredoftherain]

I'm sorry to hear you are struggling so much right now - something that I would like to comment on is the implication that you are to blame for your "rut" and although I don't know your circumstances, I would beg to differ. We find ourselves impacted by so many factors that it is impossible to blame one single thing for our life positions. On the positive side you are reaching out to find a way up, hold that thought and keep looking for that one glimmer that can motivate you to do even the simplest of tasks...I say this as I'm trying to figure out what the point of showering today is...you're not alone in trying to find a way

[Skeezyks]

Hello Linus VanPelt: Gee... your situation sounds allot like mine (except that I'm older than dirt!) I also find that I have no motivation to do anything. My spouse & I own one car. But I don't drive anymore. So the only time I go anywhere is when she drives. This is okay, though, because there's no place I want to go anyway. I also tend to be socio-agoraphobic. I absolutely refuse to go anywhere where there is any kind of a crowd at all. You wouldn't catch me anywhere near a concert! I consider public transportation to be even more dangerous than the streets! I do read a little bit from time-to-time. But, if I never read anything again, it wouldn't bother me. And, other than my spouse, I have no family or friends. Pretty-much, my exclusive source of interaction with the outside world is here on PsychCentral... that's it. I have, however, made peace with all of this. It just is what it is. I hope that, in some way or other, you can find a way to make peace with your situation too. I send warm thoughts your way with the hope that it might be so...

[TryingToKeepTrying]

Hello Linus,
Reading what you wrote and learning I wasn't the only one that felt this way helped me. Thank you for that, Sir.

[Fuzzybear]

[guiltier65]

Originally Posted by TryingToKeepTrying

Hello Linus,
Reading what you wrote and learning I wasn't the only one that felt this way helped me. Thank you for that, Sir.

I think that is one of the greatest benefits of this site, realizing you are not alone in this world. Keep connecting and reaching out.