good day/bad day

I'm just really in turmoil... did good stuff today but I feel really really crappy, and I spend a lot of everyday now sort of "detached" trying to figure out if I feel good or if I feel bad... which I believe is a silly thing to do (I should just feel what I feel, but somehow I can't tell) and am I in really way too deep or will things get better before they get worse?

Did good stuff today but I think bottom line although I feel as if things are starting to improve there is still at least one HUGE trigger to my depression, maybe two, that I just can't get past, and I'm stuck here with them, and I don't know where to go or which way. Like the proverbial "choose between these doors, one leads to freedom, one leads to a man-eating tiger" and it's not so bad to choose I just can't make a decision.

I'm going to try to get to bed earlier today. I'm really achy too I think from moving stuff around yesterday, that's certainly not helping.

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I also feel like I'm still not thinking clearly, like I'm stumbling on my thoughts and words, which still kind of scares me.

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the first question I would ask is are you eating, are you sleeping, are you active, etc... you cant expect a porche to purr like a kittenb i\f it isnt tuned,,,,

i know i dont do the proper amounts of those... its so essentail though....

"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but rising every time we fall." Confucius

Sweety, I think your detachment could be from the great things you've been accomplishing lately. You're out of your comfort zone. It could also be a bit of anxiety. Both will contribute to a bit of confusion, difficulty thinking and expressing ourselves.

I've had a cloud over my head, too, for a while. I know what's got it there and there's nothing to do about it. It has to work itself out on it's own. The key to all this is "acceptance." Just accept where we are and the burden gets lighter until the solution comes along.

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<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

>> You're out of your comfort zone.

That is definitely a large part of what is going on, and that is a great way to describe it. This is a case where "putting a label" on it can help me get a handle on it when I am panicky. Thanks for the excellent turn of phrase.

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{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Dave}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Anytime, my dear!





<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

(((((((((((Dave)))))))))))))))

It sounds like you are making a lot of effort and a lot of progress! That's wonderful!!!!! But at this point it's disappointing that all the symptoms aren't gone, isn't it? I had some that just hung on forever, it seemed, like not being able to concentrate. But that one cleared up too, eventually. Be patient, ok? You'll get there.

Wendy

<font color=orange>"If we are going to insist that people pull themselves up by their own bootstraps, we must ensure that they have boots."</font color=orange>

Thank you Rapunzel. I'm trying to keep a close eye on that, so as not to expect too much or push myself too hard, and also not to get so focused on the setbacks that they obscure the progress.

It is a difficult line to walk.

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