[alm15]

Wow! So many of us seem to be having a hard time right now. I'm no exception. I get all freaked out when the money runs out before the month. My daughter's doc just told me today that her ankle is screwed up because of her sneekers. They're all worn out. And I don't have enough money to buy her another pair until next month. I only have $10 for the month. She's also out of Claratin that costs $10 and food. I was too depressed to go to the food bank this week. Her father keeps saying he'll help but never does. I've been trying to hide how sad I am from her. But today after her appointment, I just lost it in the car. I almost didn't make it to the car. I just started sobbing and I couldn't calm down. I felt so badly. I know she doesn't need to see that. I told her she could visit a friend this weekend if she wants but I'm not up to having anyone over. She said she didn't want to go. Part of it is because she's worried about me. She's 9. It isn't right for her to carry any of this. I try so hard to not put any of my stuff on her. But, I'm not doing a very good job lately.

[Fuzzybear]

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{alm}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I am hoping for better days for you soon ...

Take care,
Fuzzy

[texdave]

You're doing the best you can, and obviously you love your daughter dearly. Give yourself a break. And so you know your not alone, I got laid off today, declaring bankruptcy Mon., and have 600 dollars to pay 2500 dollars of bills and living expenses of which most are a month behind already! The only thing that keeps me from freaking out (today) is my faith in God and the fact that everything in life is temporary, good or bad. Change is the only sure thing. I wish the best for you, keep talking and seeking support. I remember when I was about your daughters' age hearing my mother crying in her room because she was out of money for the month, it scared me, but it also brought out the best in me. I walked into the room and asked her what was wrong. Through her sobs, she told me I shouldn't have to worry about it. I said, It's allright mom, God will take care of us." I don't know if I really believed it at the time, but she did, and He most certainly took care of both of us. Through the years when I've struggled with one thing or another, she has reminded me of that. She has never forgotten that one special moment, and neither have I. Have a peaceful day.

[alm15]

Thank you all for your supportive replies.

Texdave, what a trip. Your story about your Mom was so similar to what happened the other day it is weird! As I sobbed she rubbed my arm and told me it wasn't my fault. I kept apologizing for her having to see me like that. Kids are so amazing! I am doing better. I'm sorry to hear about your financial woes. I think my Faith kicked in too. I just decided fi I have to overdraw my account for food, I have to. It will be covered by the 5th and then I can do it all over again next month if I have to. :-}

Take care all! And thank you again for being there for me! Annie