[geez]

I'm a mom with two amazing boys and a husband whom I love. I have been treated for depression since November 2012. Most days I do well but others days not do much. This time of year (winter) is particularly hard with shorter days of sunlight. I have acquaintances and some friends but no one I can count on as being a close or best friend. My closest confidant that I would trust with my life outside of my husband is my therapist.

I invited family over for Christmas Eve because I can't be alone with just my core family. I feel the need to create the environment and memories for my boys and myself that I never had as a child. To feel valued and loved.

I had plans this New Year's Eve to spend with another family but they cancelled last minute. I kept myself busy today but now I'm sitting here typing this holding back the tears. I've never felt so alone in my life. I hate this time of year.

[Serzen]

I really like new year's eve, it's like a new, fresh start.

I hope you can come up with a nice plan so you don't feel alone, but always remember that you have yourself. I send you many hugs.

[CANDC]

Sorry you are upset about this time of year. Until Monday it was warm in New England so we are spoiled. Today it got to 42 which is mellow.

I am not as upset about New Years Eve. I am not a party person so I am celebrating Thursday night. YAAAY.

Probably go to bed early!

[Jbeancoaster]

I think New Years is just another holiday where I am reminded of how how alone I really am and how things just didn't turn out the way I planned.

[Jadenmia1]

I'm sorry you feel this way!! Happy New Years from me

I'm a mother of 2, pregnant with my 3rd and also have a husband but he's not so loving or supportive, I also dislike this time of year.
I'm so very different from my family and my husbands family have cut me off so I don't see them.
I usually come to my mothers for the holidays, I always look forward to it but then regret while I'm here and remember how horrible I always felt growing up. Blah.

Hope your night feels better and remember to make your own traditions with your kids they will remember it with joy when they get older. All the best

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[Evaluna]

I don't like new years eve. I spent midnight stood watching fireworks on the TV and feeling more lonely than I have in a while. It's not that I wanted to party, I'm past that now, but just to have someone to have in the room and give me a hug. My daughter was fast asleep in bed and all my friends were with their friends and family. I normally don't make a big deal of it but this year the whole Christmas period has been so hard. I'm glad things can finally get back to normal.

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[dexter]

This year I made a good decision for myself not to be alone but instead to accept an invitation from some supportive friends. A cold and an ear infection kept me home instead. Now they are sharing photos of their small party and it would have been really good for me to have been there. Probably a drop in the bucket though.