Kinda Done

I don't know. I just don't feel like myself anymore. I can't enjoy anything I love. I'm always tired but I can't sleep. I'm getting sick a lot. I hate my job. I hate where my life is going. I don't like who I see in the mirror. I hate waking up when I do get a chance to sleep. I'm just kinda tired of life.

I'm stuck in the same mindset as yourself. I turn to music and my motorcycle to get my "fix" of enjoyment in life. Other than that I kinda just "float" through life enduring it as I go. I don't wanna repeat the same thing everyone says but its got truth to it, finding that ONE thing that makes you happy/satisfied in life will give you something to help. My motorcycle is what does it for me, winter is allot harder on me because I can't ride it.

I feel the same way. I hate my job, too. My life seems so empty with nothing to look forward to, even though I have things and people I should be grateful for. I guess the one thing I have is belonging to a meditation community. My meditation instructor has MS and is confined to a wheelchair, but his attitude and strength are amazing. I think of him when I start to feel sorry for myself.

I hope you find renewed interest and faith in life.

Welcome to the Psych Central community, OldSouledHippie. I love your username. As Leonard Cohen said, "I've been where you're hanging. I think I can see how you're pinned." It took most of my 59 years to finally get to a place where depression doesn't torment me. I made a lot of mistakes on the way-- but so don't we all. There is a spark of hope in you, one that caused you to join and post here. I hope you will nurture that spark. Keep reaching out here. And if you haven't yet, find a mental health professional to consult. It's too much to try to fight this without effective help.

Thanks for replying, guys. I did find something that brings me enjoyment, but it's starting to take over that too. That's what's killing me. Music has been my passion since I was practically a baby. But depression is finding its way around it.

The thing is, dotcom02, I did find something to help me enjoy life. It's music. But, depression is making its way around that. I can't pick up my guitar for more than one song anymore. I can't pay attention when listening to music. It's really starting to make me angry,

hello darkness my old friend.....