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hey everyone....well, there's something which is making me feel really bad lately....even though i try to stop cutting myself i just can't do it....yesterday i was alone at home and i locked myself in the bathroom and cut myself till it started bleeding a lot...it was not a deep cut but i'm worried cuz i know cutting is bad for me and i really wanna stop but when i cut i can't think on anything else, just how sad and angry i feel, i kinda loose my mind in that moment, i have just started a new treatment (i did one last year but didnt worked out cuz i hated my psychologist and my psychiatrisct) and i'm hoping this one will work out....i just wanna be happy, is that too much to ask for? i mean i knoe no one can be happy all the time but at least i wanna be able to be happy most of the time....well i think that/s all...

big hugs
jessi

That is great that you started new treatment as you stated in your post, you mention you hated your therapist and pdoc, I understand how that can be, but keep in mind they aren't there for a popularity contest, sometimes you need to be patient and listen to what they have planned.
True there are some morons out there with titles, pdoc.and psychologists but there are excellent pdocs/therapists too, so just never give up and when you start to get this urge to cut, etc. I would suggest you call or even see your pdoc as soon as possible, they can't be of much help to you if you sort of hide this from them. You need help and should not delay on seeking it.
You are welcomed to talk to those on the SI forum, maybe they can offer some support and suggestions, the members at this site are very supportive, warm people, and are willing to listen to others.
Feel free always to stop and chat with us either through posts or PM's, even check if anyone is on "chat", talking to someone may help delay or diffuse the urge to cut.
Just my 2 cents.

DE

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON

what i meant was that i used to hate my old doctors...i like the new ones....thanks for replying my message

hugs \jessi

That is very good that you like the new doctors you have now, that is one big step in the right direction, at the same time be sure to keep in contact with them even before the "urge" starts to intesify.
Please take care, alright?

DE

In giving advice seek to help, not please your friend
SOLON

{{{{{{Jessi}}}}}} I've never cut, but I do get impulses to do things sometimes that I shouldn't. It can be hard, but is there anything to distract you that might work every time you feel like cutting? Pets or animals, knitting, reading, movies/videos, coloring, blowing bubbles, exercise? Maybe if you do pushups every time you feel the urge to cut--by the end, you'll be too tired to cut, plus you'll be stronger. Just brainstorming. Hope you find something that works!