[guiltier65]

I feel as if I'm on the outside of my life, just watching it all drift by. I don't feel like a participant, just a somewhat disinterested observer. It's the same routine every day. I feel as if I'm in limbo, waiting for something new or interesting to happen.

[Frankbtl]

Hi guiltier65

I'm sorry you're feeling so apathetic........disinterested.........detached??
And absolutely depression can make you feel that way, but is there anything you could think of that might "reconnect you" or help you want to be an active participant??
I know it can sometimes be really hard to move away from those types of feelings, but maybe setting a goal towards something that might even slightly "light a spark" for you??
Maybe trying to return to a past interest or trying to find something that might (maybe in time) hold an interest for you??
Maybe some lifestyle changes?? Maybe there are people you'd like to spend some more time with/around??
And perhaps identifying things in your life that aren't working too well for you right now, and working on how you may be able to change those things (some may need some "brainstorming" ).
And I don't know whether it would help in breaking "the same routine each day" in setting yourself a kind of timetable for the week.........inserting different orders and new things..........even time to exercise or do something relaxing/just for YOU???
So......I'm kind of saying do you think you can make some new and interesting things happen..........even if you start real small??
And if it would help........there are a lot of encouraging people on here if you think you may need a "boost" in making some of those steps.



Alison

[guiltier65]

Thanks, Alison. I am trying to find my way back to some semblance of life. I do get to watch my grandkids on Sautrday and Sunday. I am looking forward to that. I just feel so tired all of the time lately. I could sleep for days and maybe get caught up. I am going out for coffee with a friend on Saturday am. I appreciate the advice. I will try to act on it. Erica

[Frankbtl]

Originally Posted by guiltier65

Thanks, Alison. I am trying to find my way back to some semblance of life. I do get to watch my grandkids on Sautrday and Sunday. I am looking forward to that. I just feel so tired all of the time lately. I could sleep for days and maybe get caught up. I am going out for coffee with a friend on Saturday am. I appreciate the advice. I will try to act on it. Erica

Thanks for the reply Erica

Just an after thought on if you've had a medical checkup in case there's anything physical going on.............?? But leaving that with you, and moving on.............

Depression can certainly take all your energy, and it can be a struggle doing even basic things, as you probably know.
But it is really good that you are able to look forward to seeing your grand children and get to enjoy some time with them, that can be precious
Although I'm wondering if maybe the rest of the week seems even "emptier" than it would when you're not actually with them??
If...........maybe you could schedule midweek to e.g. get them a small gift, phone to see how they are, write them a short message for when you see them........?? Just something "positive"??
And maybe scheduling something different in midweek as well??
If the tiredness is holding you back a bit at other times though.........smaller things?? And even different things at home on "tough" days e.g. reading (and if focus is a problem, then short stories or poems), watching/listening to something either relaxing/comforting or "upbeat"...............

BUT most importantly..........real kudos to you for trying to find your way out of this, I know it can be really hard, but that can sometimes count for a lot. Respect!!

Alison