Not too sure

Ok so I'm rapid cycling type 2 bipolar, have ADHD, PTSD and a brain injury oh and am a chronic pain sufferer. Most days I get by okish with meds and generally keeping myself as active as my pain can allow. Despite the brain injury I am highly functioning mentally and not err slow or what ever the word is just have a poor memory these days. More and more as I delve deeper into the world of educating myself the hardship starts. I might miss a day here cause I can't walk or a day there because of anxiety or some other thing. Individually they aren't enough to shake me but as time progresses and the work load increases and gets harder the black dog of depression pops up and life grinds to a halt. I feel trapped in a sea of endless physical and emotional pain and it seems the harder I struggle the only thing that happens is depression turns to sever depression and the the whole self harm Suicide thought crap pops up. I've been hospitalised for depression like 10 times now and I.. I just don't know what to do I want to be happy and normal like all my friends but man the amount of stuff I gotta carry with me all day every day makes that seem like an impossibility not too sure if this was the right forum felt appropriate

For your ADHD you can use the hyperfocus as a strength instead of a weakness.

In terms of PTSD, I found TRE (Trauma Release Exercise) to be really effective. It detraumatizes using neurogenic tremors. The reason I like TRE, is because it's a no talk therapy. It works. Youtube it.

I use animal therapy for my ptsd I have a full time mind dog - ares he's gangsta I also do a lot of horse riding and caring they are so so so in tune with people emotionally it's just astounding having a horse cry with you. The pain is my real my Everest do I take the pills and instantly bar myself from my field of work or do I not take them and probably never reach the summit also the pain is an exercise limiter as I said some days I can hardly move without wanting to scream

I have a mind dog with me basically at all times he's good for the ptsd stuff anxiety and just generally helps keep the mood up I also do a lot of horse riding they are amazingly in tune with humans emotionally and they are big miracle workers, unfortunately I know the therapy of a good gym bashing but with a worsening nerve condition I'm sort of a 24 yr old stuck in a body coming up on 80 so those days are well past for me I'm afraid... Think I would overdose on fentanyl before you could have me running