Depression Worsening

Hi everyone, I'm new here. I posted a pretty long post in the new members area already tonight, so I probably won't go into much detail about my history unless asked. I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder and GAD in high school. I'm now 28, living on my own, and in an amazing relationship, but I don't think I've ever felt worse.

My depression and anxiety have gotten worse since I moved into my first apartment last August. I worry all the time about someone breaking in (especially when I'm at home), I worry about work, I worry about my relationship, I worry about my health. Everything. In the past few months my depression has progressively gotten worse. Today I cry over anything, my sleep is disturbed, I have no energy. I've been becoming more and more angry over this, because I don't want to wallow in my sadness all the time, so I fake like everything is OK. I can barely push myself to go to work every day and get everything done. It's even harder on busy days, because I work as a counselor and have to work to put my clients' problems ahead of my own while they're here.

I have family who are extremely supportive, and a boyfriend of three years who would do anything to make me feel better, but I don't know what anyone can do. I barely feel like I have the energy to do anything for myself. I just need a place where I don't feel bad/embarassed for letting my real thoughts and feelings out, where I can find some support from others who know what I'm going through.

Hi PsychNitrous,

Welcome to a brilliant place to find support and let your real thoughts and feelings out.

I know what it feels like to be depressed when everything seems like it is perfect. I too have it all, a caring husband, I did have the job I always wanted to do and a nice home and friends ... So why severe depression? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Counsellors are often the worst people for caring for themselves. I'm glad you managed to come here to reach out.
I have found the community here to be completely accepting and non judgmental.

People here have helped me through some very dark times and I hope you get as much encouragement from these lovely people as I have.

❤️

Thanks for the welcome and response Fizzyo. Depression doesn't seem to care what you have, which makes it all the more frustrating. From the lurking I've done around here today, I think I made a good choice signing up.