hurting

I lost a cousin last night to lung cancer. She was probably one of the cousins that I was closest to and had more memories with. She was 18 when I was born, but we did a lot of stuff together as I grew up. My other cousins never thought to call me and tell me how she was doing. I just found out shortly before her death how sick she was. I'm hurting in many ways right now. but in her honor, today is my last day as a smoker. I don't want to cough myself to death. I don't want to die alone.
I long to feel connected to someone I feel so alone and in pain right now.

I'm sorry for your loss. I also want to quit. I started back up a few months ago. I have so much guilt. My dad is a lung cancer survivor, so I should know better. I wish you the best with your decision, its a very good one!

i'm hoping i have the strength to follow through with my decision. tomorrow is my quit day.

I am so sorry for the loss of your cousin. I think your decision to stop smoking in your cousin's honor would make her very proud of you.

And you are not alone... You will always carry the love and memory of your cousin in your heart.


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