About me

I am 15. I have been dealing with depression for 3 almost 4 years. My mom doesnt know, my family doesnt know. My friends try to help me but im a lost cause. I cut, smoke, pop pills, drink. I try to forget everything. Been moving my whole like, don't know how to settle down. Been hurt by the ones i love the most. So im really scared im going to get hurt again. I dont trust myself. And for some reason i can never seem to be in a relationship longer than two months. I dont know what to do or how to fix it.

Step one is to talk to your guidance counsellor at school. Step two is to see your family doctor. I'm not sure the rules there but here 14 is the age one can see a doctor and be in charge of their own healthcare without family involvment. The counsellor at school may be able to help set that up for you. They should also be able to act as an intermediary in getting your family onboard with understanding and treating your emotional health.

Thank yourself for making the step of asking for help. So many of us suffer alone until and through adulthood (I was 45 before I got help).

well, im kinda not into talking to people about whet ive been through. Ive been through so much, and feel that if I tell anyone they will feel remorse, and judge and I don't know if I could do that again. I hate people feeling sorry for me. I went to family counseling when I was little, but that didn't work because my mom decided she was going to blame me for everything that goes wrong. and she did it right in my face. I was only 10. I don't know if I could go through it again.

The health professionals job is to help, not to feel sorry for you. But you will have to tell someone if you want your situation to change. This time you can go by yourself without your family, like the poster above said, to your school counsellor and to a doctor.