[LittleMouse]

It seems that I am always trying to get by in life, trying to get better, hoping for some positive changes that will make me feel better about myself and life in general. But sometimes I am not sure I want to make it at all. If this is my life...depression and anxiety...do I really want to continue. It seems like I am always grasping for happiness and never quite being able to get my hands on it. It seems like an ellusive dream never to come true. Then I think to myself do I really want life do I want to continue like I am now full of depression and anxiety all the time. Never any feelings of contentment always chasing after something or trying to get away from myself. I can hide from lots of things in life but I can get away from myself. I'm just not sure about life anymore. Do I want it or do I want it all to end. I want it all to end that's for sure but I can not do anything to myself to end it all because there are people that I love and I could never hurt them like that. So I feel stuck in a life I do not choose but can't get away from.

(((((LittleMouse))))

Sitting here and reading your post, I have to say that I understand exactly what you are saying. But I also have to say that I am one of those people that would hurt if you were not around. I grasp for that happiness right along with you and I find that when I come here and read what others post and responses I receive from others here, there is a small ring of happiness that surrounds me. Just knowing that someone is here and listening makes it a little easier to take that next step beyond myself. Hiding from things in our life sometimes becomes second nature, but we are always there. We know ourselves better than anyone else and with that comes knowledge of our innermost feelings and thoughts. Those thngs we cannot get away from. Sometimes acknowledging those things and giving them a voice is the only way to relieve them. I know the feeling of I did not choose life but cannot get away from it. For I did not get a chose in the decision. But now, I have to find a way to somehow put one foot in front of the other each day. Coming here and friends like you help make that possible. You are important Little Mouse and we are here to support you in anyway we can. To listen and hold you up when it seems the road is too long. You are not alone. You are important to me and alot of others here that you have touched in many ways. We love you.

purplesecrets

[gostryter]

hope you feel better soon!

[dreamrunner]

wishing you the best
((((LittleMouse.))))

LittleMouse,

Look to your right, I'm right there.. Sometimes post here on PC hit you so hard, you say; that's me. Could have wrote what you did, your not alone.Pepole LOVE you out there/here... I sure do,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, you got me..

~Tucker~

[Fuzzybear]

((((((((((((((((( LittleMouse )))))))))))))))))

[recluse1]

((((((((((littlemouse))))))))) not sure i could add much more. Purple's post was beautiful and well said. just know that you are in our thoughts and are here to help however we can. pm me anytime you feel the need. i'll be there.

recluse1