Bad Day

I'm feeling a little guilty. I haven't been here in a while. I got a part-time job and then took 3 classes in accounting school. The computer class is hard. Today was just a bad day at work. It was pure crap.

I just don't want to fail at everything I do.

you can do it- set your mind on the goal the end of it and achieving it and you can do it

easier said than done right?
but the truth is you just have to fight everyday for it, done assume you are going to fail...
you are trying and for good thing yto come to you you have to try right?

keep fighting

One bad day isn't failure, it is one bad day. Whatever happened don't let it swamp you and undermine your self esteem. You have come so far and achieved so much in the past 12 months. You are most definitely not a failure. Getting stuff wrong is just part of being human so don't be too hard on yourself.

Hope today is a better day and sending warm wishes and hugs your way.

Sending you all my good vibes

Sending you all my hugs. Bad days happen to all and maybe this bad days will continue, but they will pass. And you are fine. You are better than them.

That is a lot to take on in a short space of time, it is natural you will get the occasional day where you are overwhelmed. Being so pro-active when having MH issues shows great strength, enough to override a bad day at work and a class which seems difficult.

I hope you put your guilt behind you and keep us updated more regularly on your progress in your endeavours. I am sure you will put these little glitches behind you and have better days anon.

Dave.

I appreciate all the love and support. The next two days at work went so smoothly. In spite of the difficulties, I am learning so much stuff I never knew before about Word 2013, Excel, and now we are on Access. So far I am passing the computer class.
I am 54 years old and this is the first computer class I have ever taken. All my life I learned what I had to learn on a computer to just function. I never had a formal computer class. I am back in school for the first time in over 20 years. I consider it a privilege to be able to go to school.

Last spring I left a job that was literally making me severely depressed to take on a job in a different field. The new job did not work out and I found myself unemployed. There I was at rock bottom. I found I qualified for the low income mental health clinic so I finally got treatment for a two year long depression. I had been wanting to go to accounting school for ten years so here was my opportunity. I was surprised and pleased that I qualified for a pell grant. At the beginning of 2016 I had the opportunity to take a part-time job at a dry cleaning store where I had worked from 2004 to 2010. I accepted the job. It doesn't pay much but it is much less stressful than the work I was doing before.

Last night I had a dream that I was working at the old stressful job and the boss there was giving me a bad time about something I had no control over. In the dream I also knew I had to leave that job in the afternoon to go to my job at the dry cleaners. In this dream I was considering quitting the bad job. It is strange what we dream. I need to get bad memories out of my head and look forward to good things.

i think thats wonderful, i really want to take classes someday soon myself

speaking of strange dreams, i dreamed last night of being naked in school gym class
dreams can be strange indeed...